Lost in thought, and drifting away...

Tell you this truth. I cant.
Get it over THAT fast. The whole day. FOR the whole day. I keep on scolding all sorts of vulgarities in my heart.
I wish I could just believe that it was a stupid mistake. You dont mean it.
And it reminded me of that incident. It was an intention. Making me believe every little thing, only to realise it was all lies. Tell me the truth and risk me hating you. Dont lie to me just because I wouldn't feel unhappy.

Spit it all out.
Say you dont like the way I talk to you.
Say you dont like me passing sarcastic remarks.
Say you dont like me being indifferent.
I dont know what you are thinking when you said whatever you said you dont mean it and again telling me you are sorry and you mean it.

What is the point now? Am I suppose to take all back. Trying to convince myself I am just dreaming every single day.

Why am I so petty?
Why am I so stubborn?
Why it cant be my mistake?
Why cant I be the one to let it go?

Now is the matter of am I willing or not. Am I? Willing to believe it was NOT an intention. You are not the same. You wouldn't lie to me just because you didnt want me to be unhappy. And you are telling me the truth now so I wont be unhappy.

You are telling me the truth.
You are telling me the truth.

AGAIN I am upset.
...try again or walk away...