back from outside.. the NDP preview was fantastic.. went into the stadium safe and sound.. got a very good seat.. with a very clear view of the stadium.. was at the first row.. wow.. TKSS band put up a wonderful display.. can't take my eyes off them.. then was the mass display performance and total defence performers.. got parachutes.. lolz.. so happy.. LIVE!! parade march in.. sister was so excited.. thousands of people trying to look for a army guy ( her boyfriend ) claimed that she had spotted him becos of the unique shape of the face.. meihui and my sister were playing and talking about the handsome army guy below.. next was the show.. the flowers and butterflies.. lolz.. i loved the plane and the fireworks.. the sound and view were so different when i watched at home.. this year de fireworks are very beautiful.. still got heart- shaped de.. so happy~~! walked to the badminton hall that restuarant to eat dinner.. had a lot of fun today.. *smile*

woke up early today for english oral.. sleep in the classroom.. asked kah xin to wake me up.. oral can score le.. :( had the lousy picture disscussion and conversasion.. went for band.. but din play any instrument.. pack a bit in the library.. played with cheng hsiang hp.. weihwang and kkk were playing chinese chess.. so long nvr play le.. go disturb them play.. in the end played with yuetyong.. :( sad.. i lose one round.. band over le.. go singapore post with meihui buy red t-shirt.. now back home to change.. going out watch NDP preview le.. will be back tonight..

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today was our amaths block test and history..  amaths all the questions i know how to do wan exactly add up to 40 marks.. if all correct then i pass liao.. lol.. wadever la.. doesn't matter to me.. history do the source based first question sleep le.. wake up at the last 15 mins to do the rest of the question.. dun get 0 marks can le.. if not the paper will become very ugly.. english lesson practice the conversation.. Passing out parade.. xin shuo and wan jia cry.. lolz.. then when taking photo shanhu also cry.. funny.. hm.. walk here walk there in the hall.. dunno wan to join hu to talk.. so lonely.. took a lot of photos.. very tired.. back to band room.. disturb pple.. played soccer.. at first was playing very happy.. but dunno why as the time pass play until not fun at all.. sianz.. off to mac to eat.. din talk much because they were busying messaging girls.. took cab home with gib.. tomorrow still got english oral.. need SLEEP!!
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hm.. yesterday din blog hor.. why huh? orh.. went out..
Wednesday
morning go PAC listen to miss cheong talks.. had our emaths block test.. i very sad ar.. 2 marks.. i no time to write.. idiot.. break.. chemistry test ==> FAILED.. 60 marks paper onli know how to do one question.. one mark.. lolz.. chinese lesson.. counted as free period ba.. no lesson.. assembly can die ar.. so damn bored.. went canteen for lunch to wait for koon ann class finish remedial at 3.. chat chat chat.. went bugis buy CD.. elva de.. nice~ walk walk walk.. with stella, kok hong, weizhen and koon ann.. koon pheng, cheng hsiang, desmond and darren tan come find us.. walk a bit and find things to eat.. across bugis.. eat the apple thing and play with the tortoise car.. play and play.. went home.. no study at all..
Today
physics paper--> FAILED.. i onli know half mv square.. in the end find out the answer also wrong.. bye bye to my science block test liao.. reccess.. kokhong come my class find stella.. the usual kpos (koon ann and koon pheng) came too.. wa lao.. koon ann got girls give him the elva disc.. WAD THE HELL!!! i also wan.. kao pei very long.. until physics lesson over.. english oral again.. maths for one period.. talk cock with yun and maojie.. went for dnt lesson.. do a bit for the artefact.. sianz.. NE quiz.. i do the quiz unil wan cry.. do until 3 times!! finally completed with the help of xiaoyun!! but 1530 liao need to go tuition.. dun haf a maths text.. yun run to class help me take.. i go band room borrowed from christine and run to take cab to tutor house le.. xiaoyun called me ask if i got textbook liao.. feel so guilty.. she run and help me take and i go home liao.. sorry xiao yun~ and thank you.. reached his house around 1600.. study~ back home!

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A true friend is always be there when the whole world left you, he always cheers you up when the whole world has turned you down and he never asks you to act like an angel but he becomes your angel.

A friendship is something you should never let go of
As when you meet someone, you'll know how it'll end, or not
By this I mean, people can tell
If a friendship will last or if it will smell
It'll happens to everyonethat you'll think it will last but it doesn't
Then you'll think there's no use
But until you find a true friend, it'll always be fun
When they've gone away
These words you will say
'I miss you so much' and want them to come back your way
But when they're gone for a while
It's then you realize
How good the friendship is
And you can see in their eyes
That they know too
That the friendship will last
No matter what troubles happened in the past
Fights and arguments are things you get over
But this will only happen
If the friendship is bonded
When fighting or arguing
You then too, realize
How dull it is without them
And how sad it is, not being their friend
Even for just a little while
You both say sorry
And get over it
If this always happens after a big argument
You know the friendship is true
And that it'll last a lifetime
Especially if it's with you
In other words I wish to say
You're the best in every way!

copied from somewhere de.. so dunno who is the "you" yet.. bored~

hm.. block test today.. din study at all.. readin period juz borrow the sec 4 guidebook from huibin to read thru.. went back class sleep a while.. had the english block test.. i dunno how to do ar.. see the paper only wan faint.. when hand in the paper saw my class pple de answers all very long de.. haiz.. break.. today a lot pple come my class.. band de pple.. first time.. had the S.S block test.. that paper is '...'.. i pass with flying colours means i am lying le.. went to dnt room for lesson.. stay for a while and go 4I.. they at the class gamble.. cute.. i joined in and won 50 cents.. haha.. nice.. kp and kh go find stella after school.. as usual yucks is acting idiot again.. the kok hong like walking zombie.. haha.. english remedial for oral.. not bad ba.. went home..
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english free period.. talk a bit.. laugh a bit.. dream a bit.. sms a bit.. do a bit maths.. then physics liao.. sleep until recess.. history.. draw weihwang book.. talk a bit.. dominic ask weisheng if he watched porn a lot times.. weisheng keep saying "huh?" then kkk shouted very loud the question.. omg.. damn funny.. chemistry was bored.. juz sms and dream.. went for lunch.. back to class for maths lesson.. like whole day wasted.. juz go to school to haf some jokes and waste $$.. boring day~!
   
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tot i had to rot at home today.. find wanting go out with me walk walk.. but she said she wasn't free need to do her homework.. sianz.. play the computer for 5 hours? then asked zhenru go out with me.. actually wanted to go orchard.. but she was lazy.. went to compass point instead.. hey i din talk a lot leh.. haha.. but sad thing is becos i got cough.. dun wan see doctor.. yucks.. i dun wan eat medicine given by the clinic.. eee..

When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed
and she'd read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory

I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I want to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

[Chorus]
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no one else
I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart, and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am
Don't need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me
When I give myself then it has to got to be, an equal thing

[Chorus]

I can slay, my own dragons
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free

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din go out yesterday.. sick ar.. i wan watch ella enchanted de.. damn.. fever.. not allowed to go out.. xiaoyun was very nice.. din blamed me.. still call me take care of myself.. the message was so sweet.. haha.. sleep the whole day.. talk on the phone with guilong.. go ntuc with mother.. raining leh.. then need to carry so many things.. reached home.. nothing to do.. dun wan to study.. can't sleep too.. sleep too much le.. at home walk here walk there or stare at ceiling.. 
sms for a while.. fall asleep le.. wake up sunday le.. planned to go watch movie with soon ming they all de.. now left 4 pple onli.. wanting say dun go le.. nvm.. next time ba.. sm say next time also like that.. hm.. aiya.. seperated for so long le.. the bond not there anymore.. guess when i leave this school.. will lose contact with all of them ba.. onli some will nvr forget.. waiting time pass.. 5 years from now.. all the pple around me wont be the same anymore.. :( nothing lasts forever..
Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain. Someday we'll know why the sky is blue. Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you.

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was not home in time to blog.. ready to use the computer at 0015 and is saturday.. too bad..
Friday
our school anniversary.. shanna birthday.. had 3 periods of lessons onli.. morning assembly stella told me she break with him le.. and she cry.. omg.. sorry ar.. not my problem.. so i didn't say anything to make her feel better.. kh kept messaging me.. first 2 periods were chinese lesson.. teacher told use how each and everyone of use de surname came bout.. i ask him about mine but i remember that shouldn't be my surname.. because my father followed his "fake" father surname.. and his real father surname was lin.. so if my name followed the real surname is lin lin jie.. maybe i wouldn't be called that too.. hahaha.. but i love my name..  maths lessons was only one period.. dismissed.. went home with yun.. changed.. meet stella at kallang mac.. saw kh there too.. he was really very quiet.. eat our lunch and went to school.. they were alright again.. because kh cry!! almost fainted.. got ourselves ready for the parade.. parade how? :X went back band room.. mark wanted go home.. but nobody accompany me go home or watch the concert.. asked him to stay with me.. he stayed.. so nice~ sec 1 were like small children.. maybe when i was in sec 1 i was like them too.. concert finished.. i went down.. went up to wait again.. went dinner with the band pple.. saw wanting.. haven change a bit.. reached kallang market.. eat dinner.. was sitting with meihui, guilong, xiangrong, yuetyong and yin ping.. played with ice.. a idiot stupid irritating cat came.. had to leave my seat.. waiting for the cat to leave so that i could get back to my place.. damn.. they actually started to play with the cat.. yucks.. called eugene changed place with me.. wow.. funny.. talk talk talk.. and mong was chased off the place because he din contributed to say anything.. very fun.. all of them said something when things were asked.. chat for a long time ba.. wanted to take cab home de.. i forgot i spent my $ for lunch and to buy drinks le.. left $4 only.. haha.. had to take but home.. took a bus to toa payoh with gib.. from there took mrt to ang mo kio.. then changed to bus back home.. journey was very long and tired.. reached home called tkk.. his mother picked up the phone i think say he was showering.. off i went to had my shower too.. called him again.. to confirm the date and time for the movie.. i wan to watch enchanted ella.. think will be a very nice show ba.. chat a while and wait for my hair to dry.. bed time..    
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If you dont know how i feel, then after i express in the best way i know how, you will. We've been through a lot together and all of this has drawn us closer. We are friends but within our hearts dwell a little more. Many times my mind shifts to thoughts of you, and memories we shared that changed us both in one way or another. Life is funny how one person can change something about you in a moments time, making you feel for them unexpectedly and all you can do is watch in awe, and wonder is this person feeling the same way i do. I think of you often, but are you thinking of me too. This question may be answered or maybe not, but one thing i know is if you dont know now you will. The way i feel is genuine and true, I'm not hurt by where we are now, friends we are and i am happy for that, but special is the bond we share, and this is a bond no one will ever understand. Our hearts share feeling and emotions mutually. As of now neither one of us can really see, but in due time i feel the vision will be drawn out to both of us clearly. When it is revealed i will cherish it the most. Hopefully then we will both feel the same way, and hopefully then we will turn around and see only each other in silence and a pausing moment, and know the only thing moving is the motion of our hearts beating in sync. This would be a happy ending to a fairytale, but in reality it probably would never happen, but im an optimist and rise to the occasion of daring to be different and faith to believe. Again i say if you dont know by now hopefully eventually you will.

haven blog for tuesday and wednesday.. need to recall wad happen le.. think think think..
Tuesday
2 periods of maths.. 2 periods of PE.. we played soccer.. me and yun same team.. see how they can play.. like everytime we goal then the ball returned back to us goal again.. i accidently made yun fall down.. whole lesson down there laugh laugh.. recess.. think very very long no play bottle in class le.. BST is falling.. chinese was bored.. 4 periods of dnt.. talk to weihwang and get laughed by him.. dun ask me why.. why? cos i dunno.. dunno is my answer.. dun ask me why.. sleep in dnt room.. he draw apple on my foolscape.. mj come and disturb.. idiot.. went to band for parade.. back to band room talk a while.. i really dunno why.. find xiaoyun.. and we went home together.. tkk no call me.. he juz sms me say dun trust anyone.. think is true ba.. dun trust anyone.. pretend u trust can le..
Wednesday
history sleep.. chemistry sleep.. english do TYS.. recess eat, talk and play.. maths do kinematics almost fall asleep.. but mrs kong dunno why suddenly scold scold scold.. dun dare sleep le.. chinese went AVA room watch video.. shanhu sit beside me laugh until very cute.. she told me that mdm heng fall down tuesday morning during our reading period.. that idiot heng sit wan act she was juz sitting on the floor.. assembly sleep.. got indian dance.. lame.. chemistry remedial.. sit there draw draw wait for the time to pass.. xy got LRC.. jus in time.. can go home together.. reached home.. brother was at home with his friend.. sleep at 7 and din wake up..
Today
woke up late.. had to take cab to school.. was smsing weihwang about the block test.. maojie tot i was smsing gl.. down there make stupid comments.. making a fool of himself.. TP copy english homework from jiachen and stella.. call maojie help me return to jiachen.. he passed to xiao yun.. (-_-") asked maojie he quarrel with jiachen izzt.. he give me that look and asked "u dunno meh?" chinese.. and maths.. recess.. kpo.. go ask jiachen they quarrel about wad.. he told me and made a stupid action.. so funny.. found the M&M wrapper below my chair.. i picked up and stuffed it in zhao kuang pencil case.. as usual for physics lesson dominic come sit zhao kuang place.. he put his pencil case down and walked away.. zhao kuang came and found the m&m wrapper.. he took out and put inside dominic pencil case.. he tot was dominic who put inside his pencil case.. lolz.. jokes started from there.. juz laugh laugh laugh.. mr kok no come free period.. the period passed very quickly becos we were laughing.. english had the oral practice.. maths lesson again.. do and laugh.. mj say kong really look like a pig.. damn.. lolz.. went to do dnt block test.. they say all the best to me.. paiseh.. do the test copy here copy there..  went back class find xiaoyun go back.. she want to buy shanna present and i need to help mark buy socks.. i saw xiao qing at the canteen.. her hand wrote "camera lost on 21st july" opps :X i put inside her bag when i saw it in the band library.. told her that she was like screaming "why you nvr tell me?" den she couldn't find her bag.. lolz.. she cry!!!! hahahahaha.. went to kovan.. xiaoyun bought a soft toy.. i bought the socks.. went home..
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huibin birthday~ happy birthday to huibin~! first lesson was english.. hm.. time passed very quickly.. came physics.. i didn't sleep.. copying down notes and laugh a bit about the cards.. recess we had our picnic.. i brought grapes.. i think is too little.. so fast gone le.. history free period.. walk here walk there.. in the end play the number game with those idiots.. chemistry did the the practical.. but i do for five minutes onli.. very ma fan.. i sit down there like i am the chemistry teacher see them do.. lolz.. lunch break.. maths.. went home.. hm.. meet zr at kovan.. took photo.. i bought one mini soccer ball for yun.. going share with stella.. dun have $$.. bought a froggy bank for darren tan.. too many pple birthday coming le.. broke~..  eat dinner and *smile* i am home.. 
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You must be very angry with me
Don't be
I will always have your love in me
Carrying it to where ever destination I might be
My love for you has a different meaning
A very simple way "friendship"
I hope you can accept it
My friendship,
I will forever extended it to you
I hope one day -you will understand the person that I am
Love is like a fountain it flows into a river
Thank you for being the fountain of my life
Thank you for loving me,
Even though you felt that it was one sided
Your love had truly brought happiness into my life
For every glitter of love, hope and joy that you gave me
I will always be thankful to you
 
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so bored today.. nothing much happened today.. juz another boring day..
 
There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There's secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Well maybe it's too far away
Maybe I'm just blind
Maybe I'm just blind
 
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
hold me when I'm scared
and Love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
wants to be the one
you wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
you can Hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone
 
When your education x-ray
Cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my fans
Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone
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You'll never know the feeling
Of wanting what you can't get
The feeling of dissatisfaction
Is one I'll never forget
You'll never know how exactly how
I've been feeling all along
You just sit there and second guess
Those guesses are all wrong
You'll never know what love is
If you don't give it a shot
You'll never find out if its worth it
But maybe to you it's not
You'll never know the power of words
Both uplifting and those that sting
The joy that can come from uplifting
And the pain that the hurtful can bring
You'll never know what I think of you
I'm too shy to say
I smile and talk to you all the time
But it feels shallow every day
You'll never know what its like
To never ever be wanted
I get that feeling every day
It's eerie, hollow, and haunted
You'll never know what truth is
Masks are put on every day
Truth is something seldom shared
But I'll make it anyway
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Just in time for school today.. wasted $ on cab again.. left with $1.60 onli.. so poor thing.. chinese lesson we watched the video.. very funny.. still got second disc.. next week then continue with the show.. maths we do integration.. mrs kong first time so fast teach finish le.. but flood us with lots of homework.. idiot.. recess picnic in class.. lucky zr din bring rice cooker.. lolz.. boring lessons~ eat lunch go band.. din something very evil today.. go hide eugene hp.. argh.. he cry!! wa lao.. omg.. finish everything le.. yun de mother drive me to serangoon bus stop.. so nice~ :) went kovan to meet my family.. we go eat pizza.. walk walk and digest the food.. make a lot of stupid jokes.. sugarcane for sale.. ahaha.. they are so childish unlike me.. reached home.. i wan play soccer!!! 
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raining this morning.. i wasted $7!!! haiz.. yesterday no blog.. tired.. nothing much ba.. anything special happened? nope.. all boring lessons.. today also the same.. went to dental.. the dentist say good.. i tot she was going to say my teeth is very white she continued saying no decay.. damn.. of cos no decay la.. slap her.. after school went to bugis watch movie.. mean girls.. a movie that is so true.. hahaha.. nice~ got one guy look so much like teng siang.. quack laugh until omg~ nothing to say.. nice show la..
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morning received a message from guilong.. he said he was sorry and wanted to be my friend.. make me so sad last night still wan me say wad?? din reply maybe won't ever even bother him anymore.. afterall i dun even worth a cent to him.. friends come and go but some will always be there.. maths lesson was integration.. was not listening to her cos i last night tuition learn a bit le.. lazy to copy done notes too.. daydream.. PE.. i forgot bring my t-shirt.. had to run 5 rounds.. finished running complain to huibin that i wan to play soccer and keep saying i am very sad.. she very nice lent me her shirt go play.. happy~ had fun.. it was a draw.. 5-5.. mr lim helped them.. me and yun is same team.. both of us helped them with 2 goals.. i own goal with my head.. she own goal when defending i think.. lolz.. i scold mr lim "mei li mao".. oops.. he din say anything juz continue play with us.. finished PE.. my face was so red.. stella laughed at me :( but she laugh until very funny so i laugh at myself too.. chinese --> zr la.. keep asking questions.. lolz.. 4 periods of dnt.. choo really no one time no say me will die one.. i hand in some papers he ask me where is the working drawing.. went back to draw a bit.. draw sianz le den draw the soccer ball.. ding dong.. school end liao.. went to band room.. very bored ar.. went bugis find huijun and yingying.. i reached dere juz few mintues before zilin.. cos i use my drifting skills.. heez.. go eat and walk walk.. bought a t-shirt for yun birthday.. nice~ walk around again to find my $9.. not for sale le.. i wan my $9!!! arghh.. raining.. so cold~ returned home dry.. i got umbrella.. haha.. i predicted today will rain.. ahhaha..
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first time go school see so many band de pple.. strange.. english block test.. compo only.. dunno wad to write juz talk crap.. lolz.. pray to pass la.. physics go lab.. left my hp in class.. miss it very much.. reccess draw the gear no play BS.. SS lesson was boring.. can't sleep.. miss poh keep calling pple to wake up.. chemistry borrowed the practical book from wei hwang.. a lot of my class pple no bring and were made to stand for 2 periods.. not my fault ar.. they dun wan borrow one.. burn my thumb.. idiot.. TS spray acid or dunno wad on my skirt.. i din even know lo.. they all laugh until so happy.. until finish lesson liao KKK tell me.. angry.. slap TS from the back.. his specs drop and give me that bu shuang look.. damn it.. nvr mind dun wan to spoil my day.. went for the chinese oral.. passage was alright.. but the conversation.. idiot.. i haven say finish keep asking me questions.. wanted to go home with xiao yun de.. but raining.. and nobody wait with me.. walked home with des, ts, jc, tkk and kkk.. they all walked very fast and onli me behind.. all very evil de no wait for me only des waited.. all idiots la.. on the way to bus stop talked with des about the oral.. more think more sad ar.. i dun wan go tuition later.. scared of dark.. heez..
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woke up at 9 after sleeping for almost 15 hours.. spent my whole sunday doing my dnt folio.. i only managed to finish 6 pages and the folio need at least 50 pages.. shit.. plus the last time i din de is onli 16 pages.. sianz.. 8 hours to do 6 pages.. 50-16=34.. 6 pages --> 8 hours.. 34 pages --> (8 X 34) /6 I need 45 hours and 20 mins to finish my folio.. and that is first draft onli.. sianz.. now i am resting.. lolzz.. forced to watch home alone 3..
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When the sun shines bright
You are looking alright
But you get depressed
When you see your life's a mess

It moves me so when you are down
I'm upside down sad as a clown

The wind is blowing in your hair
Life is not fair
Your conscience's knocking at your door
Who is it for?
Who are your friends?
There's something wrong with them
Who are you then?
Are you the lad insane?

It moves me so when you are down
I'm upside down sad as a clown
And you know I'm not easily moved
When sadness is there it can't be removed

You can't blame it on the weather
I know that it's untrue
Things are made to last forever
With a person like you

It moves me so when you are down
I'm upside down sad as a clown

Things are made to last forever

can't wake up in the morning.. took cab and that cost me $8.. lolz.. this year spend the most money was to take cab.. then reach school quite early.. english remedial.. damn sebastian sissy boy irritating idiot.. yucks! went to the parade rehearsal.. not too bad la.. conductors no experience.. heng not me.. later sure kanna say until jia lat.. they concert.. sit down there watch them.. play a bit.. went back band room.. waited for everyone to leave.. discuss the so-called "secret" mdm ernie came call us go down then discuss.. on the way she tell me i got a boyfriend to distract me.. damn.. muz be mrs kong anyhow.. said i dun haf and she laugh.. saying i used to have and gave me that evil smile.. idiot.. nvm.. done with that "secret" and go basketball court find them.. go market.. went home.. i took 25 home.. then i fall asleep.. i dunno i was so close to the person beside me lo.. the bus like very empty one when i got it.. paiseh leh.. that person also din call me wake up.. heng that guy still quite good-looking if not i knock the wall.. hahaha.. back home
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spent the morning lesson in PAC.. wated the stupid video until i wan sleep.. maojie birthday today.. me and yun bought prunes for him.. lolz.. maths lesson.. no sleep hor.. recess do english draft 2.. and disturb dominic.. dun wan let him sleep.. he scold us.. too bad.. still cannot sleep lo.. hahaha.. history.. no sleep hor.. but also no listen la.. dunno wad am i doing too.. chemistry.. ok.. sorry.. slept.. english group work.. they all go for oral le.. left kah xin, vivien, tkk, shi yang and me in the class room.. school end.. went for band.. parade.. went back to band room to learn.. sianz.. go play soccer at darren hse there.. had fun.. went mac.. back home.. i wan to sleep!!
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Hello, Stranger
I see you every day
You are close to me,
yet so far away
I can't wonder but think
Will it ever come true?

My heart had ached for too long
I don't know If I can go on
When will my dream come true?
I am starting to think
I might be too late

Why is it that
When I want to tell you
My voice gets lost in the thin air
How come this feeling is taunting me
Why does it stay alive?
When will my turn come?
When will that special day come?
When will my stranger come for me?

i missed my bus.. called zhenru.. she late too~ meet iris and zr at boon keng there.. go school together.. hope wun get any LRC if i give letter.. walk up to 4I for chinese lesson.. back in class for maths.. recess.. play the bottle and make a lot of noise.. dominic not happy cos he sleeping.. then he scold us.. damn.. too bad lo.. recess id our playing time.. told him that and he immediately shut up.. play for a few more minutes he walked out of the class.. yeah! mr kok call us go canteen.. TS tell us that he call us go down becos he wan us to see he got a new haircut.. lame.. but it made us smile.. physics, english, maths.. dnt for 2 periods.. do a bit things here and there and draw a bit.. mr choo say i can get A1 leh.. happy :D.. actually give me wad grade also can.. juz dun wan be lower than junhui.. find xiaoyun.. went home together.. back!
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Whatever It May Take


You made me crawl feeling so small
Creeping like shapes along the walls

Life fades to gray
Why must I pay
for giving my heart away

[Chorus:]
But whatever it may take
However my heart breaks
I'll keep singing in the rain
'till your back again

You left a hole deep in my soul
leaving my world so cold

But standing eye to eye
I still wonder why
we had to say goodbye

[Chorus:]
And whatever it may take
However my heart breakes
I'll keep singing in the rain
'till your back again
and whoever that changed your mind
whoever that makes you blind
I'll keep waiting here for you

All I ventured but nothing gained
I'm walking through the rain
Trying to keep a fading flame alive

Help!
Help me
Baby I'm lonely oh so lonely

Will I ever feel your love again
Am I really losing you my friend
Your absent talking your missing light
Makes me lonely on a Saturday night

woke up at 6.. i am in zhen ru house!! lolz.. went to school together with her.. meet iris.. history lesson.. test.. no study.. sleep~ wake up.. chemistry.. short lesson.. din sleep.. still got listen.. english.. not sian too.. think a bit.. do a bit.. dream a bit.. BST playing time!!! yun call ts "lao gong~!" and he missed the goal!! lolz.. funny.. his leg become soft when he heard that.. laugh out loud.. maths.. sianz.. but no sleep too.. chinese nothing to talk about.. zhen ru favourite lesson.. den assembly.. let us see the photos.. lame.. went to band.. put bag.. went to kallang mac.. ate a lot.. went back band move the instruments.. actually no move also la.. juz walk here walk there and fake here fake there.. parade.. oh my god.. (-_-") went to hall after the parade thing.. mrs kong come talk to me!!! she told me "heard that u r attached" shocked but need to defend myself.. i said something by mistake.. i said not yet.. shit.. den she down there say maojie will be sad and a lot of shit.. laugh laugh then walked away.. still have to go tuition at night.. sianz.. first time so late then start tuition.. i go at 8 ends at 10.. jia lat.. so dark and the route so long.. i call tkk and i run.. lolz.. a bit idiot la.. but better be safe than sorry.. later i die there also dunno why.. back home.. finished my shower.. now time for my dinner~ 7th night of July!!

today i was just a minute early before the gate close.. damn lucky.. i tot i might be late message zhenru ask her will late not.. she din go to school.. ahaha.. maths lesson din sleep at all.. not bad hor.. PE lesson measure height and weight.. i become heavier le!!! by 0.3 kg.. i got the same weight as teng siang 48.8kg.. heng la still got grow taller 1 cm.. 167 cm!! ran 3 rounds and beg dominic lend me the soccer ball play with the girls.. quite fun.. go canteen buy pink dolphin.. like very long no go canteen buy things liao.. play BS.. xiao yun and teng siang act couple.. so cute.. chinese --> yucks.. 4 periods of dnt.. juz sit there draw draw draw.. enjoying the 1999 school magazine.. eat lunch with jun zilin ying and baoyi.. go hougang poly find zhenru.. den to hougang mall accompany her eat lunch.. walk walk.. talk talk.. someone sort of told me something.. a strange feeling.. like i know wad he is trying to let me know.. like very happy and also scare he was lying.. i dun like that person hor.. and aiya.. dunno how to say.. haiz.. lolz.. went home.. sleep a while.. shower.. cook noodles eat.. went to zhen ru house.. here am i at her house blogging..
...try again or walk away...

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it's alright
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there's no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul

Chorus

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(be strong)
You'll break it
(hold on)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can't do
No one can stop you, you know that I'm talking to you

Chorus

Young girl don't cry I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

Saturday
chinese listening in the morning.. i got all the answer same as tkk.. but the last question they say is confirm C.. nvm also.. wrong also one wrong onli.. :P went to band.. benjamin teach me how to play the marching piece.. he teach until like very easy.. but i know i still blur blur dunno wad is wad.. break.. back to band practice ben, yy and gib down there nothing to do start play with the gloves and as usual laugh laugh laugh.. played soccer.. but not really play la.. juz stand down there wait chance to head.. really bored.. sit there talk talk talk.. wanted to go the SYF but no ticket also sian 1/2 liao.. go kallang stadium there the KFC eat.. and play with ice.. mrs kong car passed by.. shit.. tuesday will let her say me liao.. go BK look for the pple who go watch the SYF.. went to mac.. they found place inside the mac.. so i went in blow a while air-con.. damn irritating idiot chase me out.. ask me why i go in.. not happy i say i wan go liao.. walked to meihui house there de bus-stop.. thinking wad we use to do and talk about after we go swimming at tanjong rhu.. haiz.. sms with tkk.. he really tot i was huijun or meihui.. waited for the bus to come.. so lonely.. board the bus.. the bus was so quiet and cold too.. reached home.. mother throw that phone bill on my face.. bitch.. wadever la..
Sunday
wake up and wait for call.. found $50 i hide.. got money go out liao.. took my hp away.. hope that woman dun know.. shower then run out of my house.. rush to bugis.. reached there juz in time for the movie to start.. spiderman 2 was a nice show.. but got one idiot sit behind me keep on kicking the chair.. go to arcade find donald.. he and kaikeat play with the soccer thing.. i sit there help press the shoot button.. kkk came to find us.. we change place and go play lan.. play until sian.. wanted go eat dinner.. our dinner cost $85 for 4 person.. omg.. left with $5 after bringing $50 go out.. took a bus home.. damn.. really change bus that time no more bus for me take liao.. had to take cab home.. stay to watch the euro final.. watched until the half of the second half i fall asleep liao.. wake up different kind of show.. went to sleep for another 4 hours..

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writting than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it in the face?
Did you know that what is most difficult for you to say or do is much more valuable than anything that is valuable that you can buy with money?

no mood to blog today..
-late but raining no dentention
-forgot bring my file to school
-reading period --> sleep
-chinese go lab
-maths lesson sleep mrs kong like not happy din say anything.. ask why i so tired onli..
-recess BST playing bottle soccer again
-history --> sleep
-chemistry --> sleep
-english --> no do homework de free period.. i do my compo
-remedial sucks, idiot mr tan ARGHH!!!
-went to band for few mintues
-went down to see them play soccer
-play a bit
-saw something i shouldn't see
-yy toe nail is so disgusting
-stepped on wei hwang injured leg
-went home

I AM ZHEN RU INFILTRATING LINJIE'S BLOG MUAHAHAHAHA~
actually no la, she bo liao ask me come her blog write these words.


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...try again or walk away...

woke up late this morning.. take a cab rush too school.. damn.. raining again late also nvm.. sleep sleep sleep for reading period and TP.. wake up go chinese lesson.. wa lao zhen ru no come school nobody tok cock with me.. sianz.. 2 maths periods.. very bored.. stared at the paper for one hour.. maojie ask me if i am going to treat maths like chemstry liao.. if maths lessons really going to stay like this.. bye bye to maths le.. sleep until ivan come disturb my sleep.. he asked me to lend him the 4B chinese textbook.. scold him but onli a while cos i tot who then i know was ivan.. joined in to play the bottle.. xiaoyun was no happy with stella.. but she onli give that look din say anything until tkk say yun and teng siang dunno wad thing.. she became very angry and walked off.. throwing her temper.. still continued to play.. because one of my leg was injured but that pig i can onli use left leg.. goal a lot today.. maybe they tired le ba.. haha.. happy.. physics = sleep.. english do the statue compo.. dnt do the drawings.. after school walked to 4F ask them about the 3 friends question.. haven tell them answer yet.. went to mac find kok hong they all.. koon ann ask me help him bluff wei zhen.. damn wei zhen say in this whole whole onli will got 2 pple like me and say koon ann not so bad taste.. ARGHHH!! angry leh.. but aiya that is the fact.. had to accept.. went back to school watch them play soccer.. they win 5-1.. nice.. i win $20 liao..
...try again or walk away...