Where are you?

Earning money is not always a happy thing. And studying is sure not a happy thing. I am in the process of chionging assignments. I am so so so lazy to click the microsoft word icon. However, doing projects with this bunch of crazy team members is a happy thing. LOOK AT THEM!!!

Samantha Mac.
Crazy photo taking time.
Post a few of the better looking photos.
Have to wait for her to send me the rest.
Enjoy this few masterpieces.

First step to my license"s". Book BTT. 28 March. WOOO~~~ So far away. Wait till I rot. Yawn. Imagine one year later. HAHAHA~~ Lol. What seems doesn't need to be true. Not interested.....yet. =D Survey first. Work-life I need to have balance. ...try again or walk away...

ARGGHH~~!! I NEED TO BE DRAGGED TO SCHOOL!!!! I wake up early today. I went online. Slack. Do things ultra slow. Thinking of going to school doing breaktime. NOW I am still at home. OMG!! Somebody save me!! WA~~~~ If only attendance doesn't count. I used up all my leave for English. LOL. DONT WORRY!! Today is the last time. =D Let me enjoy my day. Stop saying I can't make it. Cos I will and I CAN. =D ...try again or walk away...

S.H.E fans is making me go crazy today. Yar. S.H.E came Bishan today. But Samuel and Kevin is not born today. That fucking wallpaper was there dunno how many millions year. Those STUPID ignorant FOOLS get so excited about the wallpaper and start taking photos. It's ok. I understand. OVER excited. KNN!! But what has it got to do with me when the interior of the shop doesn't have S.H.E posters. FUCKING STUPID FOOLS!!! Nabei. I getting so so so fustrated about all those customers who left their manners at the north poles with the penguins or the polar bears already LOR! I dunno which animal at which pole lar. THEY are all MAKING ME SO ANGRY with their LOW intelligent. S.H.E coming down later? NO. You think what? They so freaking free to come and visit? ALL THOSE STUPID FOOLS AND STUPID QUESTIONS!!

THIS particular CHEEBYEKIA came in with his suit like a nice gentleman. I went to greet and try to be nice. HE ASKED me about S.H.E!!! WA LAO!. Yeah. What they are wearing in the photos, we are selling. How much? Around $20 plus. WAH SO EX AR? Ok, fine ex den GET LOST. Just smiled. Got discount or offer not? No. Sorry. Perhaps after CNY, depends on the management. S.H.E the clothes got sell not? Yes. I thought I answered that just now? Thinks hard. Forget it. Nonono. The S.H.E doll clothes. Sorry. Our company find S.H.E to advertise the brand. Not our brand advertise S.H.E, BROTHER! S.H.E the clothes got sell a not. Maybe this fool have serious short term memory. NABEI! IS SERIOUS short term memory LOR. How much? NORMAL STANDARD PRICING. IT IS NOT EXPENSIVE. WAH SO EXPENSIVE AR? Fuck you. No money dun come in and waste my time. LinJie has her limit. You this CBK GET OUT OF MY SIGHT BEFORE I USE THE PENKNIFE TO STAB YOU IN YOUR HEART. His brain is serious damage. DISGRACE To all S.H.E FANS. When I showed him attitude and ignore him. He walked to my in-charge. After CNY got offer a not. Thanks lor. Rany just look at him and walked away without saying anything. WA!!!! I should do just that few minutes ago lar. WASTE MY PRECIOUS TIME!!

And today because of all the shorties who need alterations. Made me the scapegoat of the lost of one XL pants which need to be altered. $59!!! NABEI!! Just because I am the cashier. CURSE the ASSHOLE who took THAT pants. Pray hard. No one come back to complain that we gave the wrong pants. ME as an experienced and intelligent S&K staff, do you think I lost the pants? ZZZZ!!! $59 you think I care? IS the blame I cant take. CB!!! ARGGGGHHHHH~!!!!!

=D. LOL!! After the scoldings. I AM SO HAPPY NOW. EAT MY BURGER LOR. BYE~~~

P.S. I LOVE S.H.E too!! but not to the extent of getting CRAZY. =D
...try again or walk away...

Girl i know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know i love you, i can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and i
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So i'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And i'll go mine
Live your life, and i'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and i'll be fine
Cause we're better off, so much better off... Seperated.

Get to hear this song accidently. Wow. Hm. L O L.
Got to go take photos of myself. LinJie = Model for movie. Fake. =D

...try again or walk away...

Some curse did come true by the way. I am SICK~~
HAHAHAHA~~ No need to go school and work today.
Projects and assignments. WO~~~~~ OMG. Do fast.
Last minute. NOOOO~~~~

Cant have the best of the two worlds.
Because I see your true colours and there is no yellow in there.
LinJie need yellow to be happy!!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ~~~
...try again or walk away...

3.2 mega pixel camera phone captures good image.


Yawn. You should know wad lesson I am having.


Group members.


These few days I have been sleeping in class.
I should say I have been sleeping all the while. Especially for mathematics.
I fall asleep while discussing for the group project.
Samantha loves to take evidence of me sleeping.
Btw the guy beside is now my Sim scandal.
Thanks to his best friend Mr Seet.


My tutors for today. Professor Lee, Huijun and Zilin. The day is saved.
Time is used efficiently and effectively. Zilin left earlier.
Serious experts working on the questions.

THANK YOU~~
I will never get a "no" from them. =D

...try again or walk away...

I always treat you as my good friend. Why I cant get even a word of concern from you? If ever there was a time when you realise all good things come to an end, remember this. I dont care.

This few months is like a test in my life. The learning the hard way stage. No more design, new work environment, new school, seeing all kinds of people, many many disappointments. Now adding to my troubles is the other 2 women in my family. I really cant take it. I wish I cant speak anymore. Really I am very very tired. That boost did help me for few minutes. Thanks. I wish I cant hear too. I dont need to listen anymore things adding to my troubles. I wish I could enjoy life now. Hais. Tell me which part can I be happy and grateful about?

Till the very last minute of my life, I will know who is my real friends. Should know why there are so many different words to describe, classmates, friends and colleagues. I am hearing this quite often "dont think too much." I mean what for? Dont let me know anything, I wont get the chance to think. EXTRA LARGE F! Trusting no one. Lesson to learn. "I will be there for you" is saying for the sake of saying. ...try again or walk away...

Living busily in order to try to forget you but I don’t know my reason for living. Even if I try to forget you to the best of my ability, even for a moment. When I find the time I think of you again.
Maybe all I need is some time off to think it through. I should have kept my birthday wish for myself.

I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down, and think that everything is okay. Boy I am only human.
Weijie says "I think you are a nice girl." It is not my lost.

Saying it’s a good thing, but constantly blaming myself.

His heart that’s seeing her like this
Is hurting the same way hers is because of that person
His gaze that is watching her
Is the same as her gaze that looks at the seat that person left.

...try again or walk away...

Cant do it, just say it. A little disappointment I must say. Even if what I predicted came true. Nothing I could do. N o t h i n g.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PATRICIA!! ~~!!
Hope you enjoy the night!! No matter what happens. Be happy. =D

Tonight is also the first time I have been treated like a lady. Holding the chair and drinking on my behalf. I dont know what that means. But kind of sweet when someone just took the cup from you and drink finish without saying anything. Those kind that only happens in drama. Haha. However, I was not sent home by anyone. Maybe because I was not drunk. But like basic countesy, I should be the one alighting first right? Nvm. It's ok. I dont care. I am not going to that place anymore. Spent too much. ...try again or walk away...

It depends. I am getting tired of this word. In real world, who dont go for the results? It depends. Used to it. =)...try again or walk away...

Xu Chun Mei wasted one hour on the attendance.
And she say she dont give a damn.
We are those bloody pple who gave her so much trouble.
And we are the worst class. Lol. I always kena this fate.
Bad class reputation.

Look at the pic of her silly face with the time showed on the clock as a proof that she wasted one hour. Class should start at 9.30.


Samantha did this to me when I slept in class today.



Look at the after effects.
ARGHH~~ MY HAND~~!!


I had a bad encounter at SIM staircase. This fucker keep staring at me as I walked down the stairs. You know what the fuck he said when I passed by him? "My goodness!" -.-" Diao. I am so so so so angry. But since I am trying to be happy today. I wont care about that stupid asshole.

Went to Sentosa.
Cable car ride. =D Cross out one wishlist!!


With this childish boy.
Sentosa walk to remember.
What a joke.



It is so easy to make me smile. =D


Cable car.


Glass but not made from glass. Cheats.


Mount Faber.
The cleaner never do his job.


Dinner with them at centre point. =D


It is easy to make my heart break too.
But it is already broken. So why worry?
Vow to stay indifferent as long as I could.

Diploma in Leisure management ( CASINO OPERATIONS )
WOW O WOW.

Gloria Estefan - Anything For You
I can just listen to one song. Keep on repeating.
But. Hais. Because. Hais. Sigh~ Maybe I should.

I should sleep now. I am not myself again. Quick.
Need to sleep!! ZZZZZzzzzzzzz
...try again or walk away...

Biggest splurge this month.

Hallmark jellewery box. =D
With 10% discount. Evelyn ex-workplace.


Spending unnecessary. Lol. Dun care. I like. =D


Next.
New NIKE shoe!! My mama paid for it. =D=D


NEW SHOE!!! =D=D


At first the guy told us $129. Opps. It is $179. My mama say "never mind, you like is enough." WOOO~~ I LOVE MY MAMA~~ and I LOVE MY SHOE!! =D =D

No rain tomorrow PLEASE!!!
...try again or walk away...

It is very funny to know a lot. You wish you didnt hear or know anything. When the other party misunderstands you not knowing that you know more than what he thought you knew. Like real. You wish you could just shut his mouth. Stop lying and let it become worse. But again. You are not suppose to let him know you know. You know what the fuck I am talking about? It is not secrets. Just something you wish you didnt know but you did. Friend's friend. The world is so small. There are too much coincidence.

What else you could do other than pretending? In a way, pretending might help. So go on and keep pretending. You dont know anything. Act dumb. Keep pretending. =D Why worry? We are living in the world of lies.

...try again or walk away...

Die. ARGH. Morning call is useless to me. I will just say I wake up already and the next minute I go back to sleep. Pon 3 times in the second week. Big F. Sian lor. SIAN!! Makes no difference in NYP. My mama is scolding me liao. Byebye....try again or walk away...

Click to listen. =D
http://diskfile.baizhao.com/zhua/Hard7/User239/7239701/mymusic/2006102873045.mp3

It is time to feature the happenings in my class. Photos for you. Secondary school refers to "not listening and entertaining ourselves" Get it? I am very very lazy to explain in sms. =D And my mood is not-so-good if I am busy. Like SO busy. Get irritated very very easily. You will forgive me. =D

I have 2 super act cute photos.
OFF day really makes me SMILE a LOT.
Break. In class.


Eunice.


Super duper ultra boring cum useless but CUTE


A more detailed feature of the Mr "above pic"

Click to enlarge and see the white board.
She is extremely slang and reminds me of Xu Mei Feng.
Opps. =X Do you think I care?

L to R. Samantha and Eunice
Samantha likes to joke. Eunice dont like to be late.
They both love camera. =D More for me to find out.


...try again or walk away...

If I never ask, dont assume that I dont know anything. I am sensitive.
How about nothing? Yup. Nothing. Act blur. What? Yar. Right. I believe.

School. I was late. Joined the class when they break. I like management! Tomorrow is English again. WAKE UP EARLY PLEASE! I am a Pig. =P

Work went smoothly compared to yesterday. It is always the problem with the colleagues you work with. Especially BAD in-charge. I met and saw a lot of familiar faces. First is my mama and ah ma. They go shopping. Second, my cousin-in-law. But she didn't recognise me. Next, Songwei and JunLong. They came to buy spray paint. Just finding excuses to see me lar. Hee. They accompany me during my break. Maybe I should say I accompany them during my break. Saw Michelle Chia at Popular bookstore. She was queueing in front of Songwei. After that is Meihui Aunty. She went shopping too. Finally, after my break, saw the contestants from Singapore Idol 2. I think is Jasmine and Paul. Really is a LOT of people today.

Here is a photo of JunLong and me.
He forever ACT cute.


Ending my post with a full-stop.

I am extremely upset today. Because I have to work and I look like a zombie. And that bitch says I am NOT pretty. Evelyn also. Sian lor. But is alright. Cos malaysian guys like to flirt with me. Therefore, I still think that I am attractive. As if I care right?

English lesson is getting more interesting. Especially when we are not listening. Still, waking up with the Sun still hanging halfway in the sky is very very tiring. I have to Drag my whole body out of my bed. I need more energy drink. =...try again or walk away...

8 days every week. I am working like the crazy sales. I am becoming crazy.
My brain is damaged from working. I forgot what time to go work in the morning shift.
Working more hours than a full-timer. Ever seen a walking zombie? Look at me!!!
What is happening? Why work so hard? ~..~" AEEE!!! Woo~~ Serve me right. Just trying to keep myself busy. Numb.

Now is TOO busy. Either you go to work or get back at home thinking and thinking. Boring lifestyle. GIVE ME ENERGY!!! I need you in my life. Always on my mind. See lar. Problem with me. Being too busy or being too hais. Know?! Being too tired or being too low. I WAN TO WORK MORE!! GIVE ME MORE THINGS TO DO!! I can still take it. MORE MORE!! HOPING FOR BRAIN DEAD!! Enjoy being self-tortured. WAHAHAHAHA~~

GIVE ME ENERGY~!!!

I need you in my life. I am recovering. New injuries.

TAO NAO PAI LIAO~~~~

...try again or walk away...

TO ALL THE DUMB DUMB ESPECIALLY YOU,
I am now working as a part-timer in Samuel and Kevin at Bishan Junction 8!
=D

Dear Zhenru,
Sorry for making you wait for me.
And thank you for waiting.
I am not being able to eat lunch with you.
Promise. Next time. I will. =D
Hp will be repaired ASAP just for you.

I AM WORKING FOR THE WHOLE WEEK!!!
It is alright to have no date. Till Vday come.
SEE who jia lat must reject how many. LOL
DONT USE LAZY AS YOUR REASON! WAHAHAHA!! SO?

SUEY MEIHUI. YOU THINK I CARE? I DONT!
And I am pretty in all photos. No matter how many decades pass.
I am also attractive. =D No effect. HAHA!!

About my new school. I've been there 4 times already.
I D O N T L I K E.

QWERTYUIOIUYTREWERTYUIOIUYTREWQWERTYUIUYTREWQ
ASJKL:LKJHGFDSASL:LKSADKL::LKJHGFDSAADFGJL::LKJHGFDS
Unknown words meaning secrets.
I am becoming a rubbish bin for everyone to throw "secrets" and "rubbish".
How about mine? Throw where?

I dont like people to talk about any matter that is seriously nothing and OVER.
Making a big fuss and then apologise. I mean what for? Bad mouth at one end and sorry at the other end. Fuck off lar. Bo liao lor. In the first place, who is the one at fault. Funny. I listen to both sides. Now what? Why tell me? Do You Think I Care? Really. I DON'T. It is NOT my problem.

Today. Again. One more story I heard. I also kena backstab. BEHIND my back says that I am RUDE and ARGUE WITH in-charge. What the F?! I mean like if she thinks I am rude and shouldn't argue with her just tell me in front of my face lar. Dont do it behind. I wont get terminated because of my attitude. Somemore NO one likes her and EVERYthing she says, sooner or later we will find out. FUNNY!!!!! I am hoping for transfer list. Please Go Away HYPOCRITE! I have an attitude but IS a UNIQUE ATTITUDE! =D

...try again or walk away...

My sleeping hours is dropping and sooner to nothing. You can see my dark circles. Yawn. I am so tired that I dont bother to put on any make-up. Look like a sick patient for 2 days. Low fuel and battery flat. Haha. First day of school will be ZZZZZZ. And time to cut my hair. Getting longer.

Tonight I laugh a lot. Is A LOT. Thanks to J8 team and the guy out of SnK T-shirt. Say Hi to Mr Xiao Hong aka Hong Hong. I think he is the only idiot guy who dares to slap and kick me.



Group photo is taken using Kevin Hp. So I think no chance to post. 10 pple went for the dinner.

Evelyn. Transfer to TPY soon. =( And we took this photo a lot of times. All failed and finally the last one before the ice-cream melts.



=D My bdae present from J8 team

...try again or walk away...

Piano keys black and blank. Have to be played together for the best melody.

Welcome to 2007!

Working and working. Good news for me on the last day of 2006. My pay increase! =D Went WeiNi house for a nice and sweet gathering. I countdown 2006 with myself and bus driver uncle in bus 88. I am the only passenger and the last of 2006. Lol.

I am going to take it easy. Because I know the heartbreaking things now. I need to take care of myself so I have energy to take care of my loved ones. Especially my mama and my 2F sweethearts. Please stay HEALTHY AND HAPPY!!! I wish every children would think of their parents before they say, do or behave. Stop being an asshole. Money and fake love isn't everything. Old enough to THINK!!! BELEIVE IN KARMA.

Am I suppose to know? As long as you are happy. Smiles =)
I think my "sad" period is over soon. Haha. Really. I am serious. Tired already but will be more tiring if I keep emo-ing. I need to spend more time to earn money and I am not going to take pocket money again from my mama. YES!! I never give my mama money before!! ARGH~~ This year I will!!

New Year resolution:

Earn Money and Save
BangKok, Australia or HongKong
Good Study Habits (Distinctions!)
Stay clear of "love" Relationships
More Sunday Dinners from me
Seeking more attention
Healthy and Fit
My Undone Wishlist in 2006
I am not very sure how is the new year resolution is like. So argaration. =D

Say Goodbye. ...try again or walk away...