Hais. Hais. I think I am being cursed!! I know why I seldom get sick.
Because I often get sick in my mind. Now you can say I am weak too. Sometimes I really really wan to CRY! You know like something very bad happened and can give me an excuse to breakdown. Please lar. I look like the character in The Holiday. Forcing each and every way to like c r y. Hais. I am S A D. What rant? -.-"

If last year I gave up on you, and gave him a chance. I wont be torturing myself now. At least I think he cares much more. But still if I could turn back time, I will do the same thing and cherish you more. Prove myself, nothing was a mistake.

In my life, there are too much things happening. Slowly, everything are making me numb. Feeling nothing. People leaving, setbacks, changes. I am like laughing everyday. And get back home lifeless. So much that I am thinking of working 24 hours everyday.

Because of you.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~!!!!
Get so crazy. Listen to some HIGH music. ~!@#$%^&*&^%$#@!@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!~
...try again or walk away...

Went for the orientation today. No fun. Low energy low mood today. But I did made new friends. Eunice, Samantha and RuiZhu. Not very sure about the correct spelling. Anyway, think they are nice. =D Under observation. Haha. I am not myself today. Quiet = not me. Compared to orientation in Nyp. Totally different. Getting emotional again because of the long bus rides. Message cant be delivered. How lucky? Very. Gone. ...try again or walk away...

Thanks for organizing the chalet is really better than sorry for not being able to turn up. And I finally got the one and only person who thanked me for that. =D A small thanks can make me feel appreciated. Makes me feel good still being alive. Haha.
A big sorry for not appreciating, giving "pms" attitude and taking everything for granted. Thank you for being around. Even if things are not the same anymore, not going back to what used to be, I believe that we will be good friends till the last breath.
I am going for the orientation at 9.30. MUST WAKE UP and TURN UP!!

To all:
Dont worry about me. No need already. I have gotten my pay. I have money and I am happy. If happiness can be bought, I wont be stingy. Sorry for making you guys spend so much willingly. Lol. Enough for me. Because of my dears and darlings. Enough. =D Thanks. Hope to see all often. ...try again or walk away...

I had a wonderful 18th birthday. Especially with my 2F darlings. I enjoyed myself. Thanks for everything. Thanks to all for the smses. =D I have a really happy birthday. Love you!
Thank you Xiaoyun for coming down right after your flight.
Thank you all Dears for coming down to chalet even just for a while.
Happy moments always gone too soon. Hoping for another chalet soon.
Time to move on to a better year. Looking forward to a more colourful life next year.

It is a funny thing. Thoughts of putting everything behind right after me being eighteen just vanished. Slowly starting all over. Every minute and every second I am losing control of my mind. Keeping thinking and hoping and trying to understand. It is a real difficult. I dont know what else can I do. Except to let it go on this same way. Waiting for the world to change. Tell me why please. Brighten my world with some smiles.
...try again or walk away...

THANK YOU!!
=D
I need to get sleep first. =D Real thanks.
...try again or walk away...

Hais. 12 to 8. From Off day to 2 to 6. Now is 12 to 8. Nice lor. Thanks Peter Pan in Neverland. It's ok~! Pushing me away. Got to go soon. BYE!...try again or walk away...

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL~

I just came back home. But not from party, countdown or whatever. In J8 doing shit work. Lonely lonely Christmas. Hah. Yucks. I really really hate my 2006. One more week to go. Please dont destroy my final hope in my last week of year 2006.
LET ME BE A HAPPY GIRL LIKE ALWAYS.

I am trying to fall in love again! =D TRYING HARD!!!

Thank You.
...try again or walk away...

" WA SEY!! SOLID!! " quoted from Engqi.
Make me the happiest girl this CHRISTMAS PLEASE!!
Working on the EVE~~ HOHOHO!!!
You said it best when you say nothing at all. =D
Thank You.

Last night, he came to my dream and said he dont like purple color anymore. He said "I like gold." Wow. Cool~ I like silver. =D My baby likes bronze. Crapping. ARRRRR........... Tragic situation. Injured wings will recover someday. Fly higher Fly further. Someday.

A photo for you. Who is the main lead?
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No other intention. Do not misunderstand.

First: I am in a mood of "sleep, sleep, soon over"
Second: I am still in a mood of "anything, whatever, I dont care"
Third: I dont know what am I suppose to feel right now

I should be looking forward to a better tomorrow. But I still stuck at what could have been. You know? You dont know. Chim. Lost in thought, and drifting away...

Please let it stop raining!

...try again or walk away...

Free pasta today again? I am not hungry. So I got a free hot milo from XiaoQiang instead. I really thought he will wait for me after work. LOL -.-" I am an innocent girl. Anyway, Danny pop a rather sudden and kind of unexpected question. I thought he would forget. Where is my Psp guy? First, not mine. Second, I have no idea. Third, What kind of question is that? I went there to get laughed at. This was a bit of interesting to me. Then, he started to say about games. YAWNZZzzz~~ I am slowly becoming numb to those nonsense. Numb. A bad thing. But true. Nothing I can do. A sad thing. Hm. Time for bed. OFF tomorrow~~ Chiong work 4 days. CHALET~~~ Orientation. ARGH~~ School starts. DEAD! ...try again or walk away...

Now affect me. Diao. Hais. I become moody also liao. Must be the rain. I should buy myself a lollipop tomorrow. No reason to be happy. -.-" The secret behind the "arm".

"SLIM"
A photo taken 1st Dec.


Taken today.


Tattoo. "J" WOO~~ Sexy lady~


I should learn to take photos of myself using my hp.
Long sleeve or Non sleeve is still the same. Zzz. The "tattoo" is the same. =(

Trying to cheer up a moody guy with a lollipop. LOL. LinJie can be very sweet too.
I am trying to change a little by little. Starting with repeating what I say till the other person understand. No MORE never mind. Keep repeating. Haha. I try k?
...try again or walk away...

I am not the only one you said those interesting sentences to. What for huh? Thinking too much about someone who hides. Maybe not hide. I should say not sharing. Haha. I will be faking I dont know anything.
My boyfriend favourite colour is purple. I think I need to eat more grapes. Sour grapes. LOL.
Be happy!! =D Always telling myself I deserve someone better. No MORE sweet talks. $1.20 bubble tea. Cholesterol FREE!!
...try again or walk away...

It is good to still have us. =D
Happy Belated BIRTHDAY to Miss LEE ZILIN
No birthday card BUT~!!!
A beautiful photo taken with me is more than enough for you.
This photo will worth a million soon. =D
18 years old girl who looks underaged need to eat more and get FAT!!
Wish you will gain 10 kilos in the following year~



Watched The Holiday with huijun and zilin. NICE movie. Worth the $8!
GO watch if you are thinking of what movie to watch this 2 days. =D

New york~


Esplanade. Blue Balls.


Continue of stay over at the pretty girl house.
Mine! They went back 6am. When the sky is still dark.
Got to go work. BYE!

...try again or walk away...

Wednesday night. Went to C.A.N cafe with Chloe and Kevin.
I like that place!! =D And I found out the warehouse that guy name and age. Best is he is SINGLE!! I am always shy when he is there. Special ability he has. =D BUT I dont dare to talk to him lar. From Tm to Lp now J8. ARGH!!! Why he dont want to talk to me first? Tired of waiting. ARRRRR. Continue dreaming.

Here is nice article I saw. Lazy to scan. I use HP cam. Still can read. Click on it.

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Slacking away. Happy Birthday~~!

I want to watch the holiday! Anyway, today was so boring. No where to go. No mission. Nothing to do. XiaoYun go match HweeJun go Night Safari. No nice movies timing. Cathay and sit there like 2 idiots. Zilin said her brother said there is a place to play pool at Singapore Shopping Centre. So we decided to play there.
No tables. Have to wait for call. Haha. On our way out, this stranger approached us asking "Underaged?" Lol. We look young! Offered to play with us for free. FREE!

Joined them and laugh like hell. There are always lame jokes. One 16 boy behaves and looks like zhaokuang. 15, 16, 17, 18, 19. 5 persons. 5 different age. Fun. Back home for TV!
Now is time for SLEEP! See you tomorrow~

...try again or walk away...

Tell you this truth. I cant.
Get it over THAT fast. The whole day. FOR the whole day. I keep on scolding all sorts of vulgarities in my heart.
I wish I could just believe that it was a stupid mistake. You dont mean it.
And it reminded me of that incident. It was an intention. Making me believe every little thing, only to realise it was all lies. Tell me the truth and risk me hating you. Dont lie to me just because I wouldn't feel unhappy.

Spit it all out.
Say you dont like the way I talk to you.
Say you dont like me passing sarcastic remarks.
Say you dont like me being indifferent.
I dont know what you are thinking when you said whatever you said you dont mean it and again telling me you are sorry and you mean it.

What is the point now? Am I suppose to take all back. Trying to convince myself I am just dreaming every single day.

Why am I so petty?
Why am I so stubborn?
Why it cant be my mistake?
Why cant I be the one to let it go?

Now is the matter of am I willing or not. Am I? Willing to believe it was NOT an intention. You are not the same. You wouldn't lie to me just because you didnt want me to be unhappy. And you are telling me the truth now so I wont be unhappy.

You are telling me the truth.
You are telling me the truth.

AGAIN I am upset.
...try again or walk away...

If "please" is always right. That shouldn't be a wrong attitude. Just a usual "please"
I am wrong.
If showing I am in a very bad mood and even getting more fustrated. You thinks I am playing. I am wrong.
IF I dont give a damn about that stupid tag and by not switching on the computer did wad I am suppose to. I am wrong.
If joke made isnt funny to you, I am wrong. If you think I am bullying and I dont know any limit, I am wrong.
I have totally no idea who the hell "other people" I made till.
Whoever "other people" is, if my joke is mean to you and you are hurt.
I am sorry "other people" .
I knew you were joking. So? You knew it was a joke all the way?
Dont talk to me as if I am just using you as a toy, joke or seeing you being pissed makes my day.
I NEVER treat you any worse to get a FUCK YOU as a return.
It is like a "sorry lar" "sorry for... but..". Pisses you off. Pisses you off. It PISSES ME OFF
What was the limit? Everybody has limit.
DONT EVER APOLOGIZE TO ME. Saying for the sake of saying. I am too, NOT a ROBOT! Talking about feelings with such a simple matter.


WHATEVER

That is wad you say.

Now I know why you asks me about that question. Haha. I am such a fool. If that is really wad you wan. End it. Applause to you for putting up with me. Thanks~


...try again or walk away...

Once a liar, forever a liar. LOL. Too bad. I am NOT dumb. Why are there still so many dreamers? No energy for nonsense. I am BACK to ENJOY LIFE~~~ Start to watch TV programmes. Updates from NEWS!!

Request help for my chalet:
Food & Drinks ! Anyone? Kind enough to sponser something.
I need $$$.

I am still considering who to invite. Sorry for people who read my blog and nvr really hear from me asking you. You know you will come can auto ar. Steady a bit more. =D

...try again or walk away...

I went swimming alone. WOO~ Call me Dory~ Just keep swimming~ Still prefer NYP and Tanjong Rhu. Hougang pool have many obstacles. I said sorry twice today. No goggles! Funny me went to swim with specs. Haha. Today is really effective swimming. One hour of no-gossips. Friday again. Yes or no, that simple. ...try again or walk away...

Went to pastamania during my break today. FREE meal~ XiaoQiang cooked pasta with lots of bacons and prawns. =D Danny treated me his self-made chocolates. BIG round chocolates. Need to do some exercise tomorrow. Walking is also an exercise. =D

Question
Which photo should I put in my wallet?

Voting:

A : Family
B : 2F Ladies
C : Favourite girl
D : Leave Blank First <3

=D

Time to sleep! I am not wasting my time. Is recharging battery life to work better tomorrow.
Goodnight!

...try again or walk away...

I think I am getting OFF for the whole next week. They didn't plan me in. Becoming the excess staff. I think. Yawnz. Planning how to spend my week first. Anyone? Shopping with me? Time for a hair cut.

Did you notice the song playing in my blog?

Tick Tock, Tick Tock, Time is going faster and faster. 2007 coming!!
Bad Luck year 2006 is leaving me~~ Hope to win in some lucky draws or 4D as soon as 2006 leaves. Haha. Preparing for the NEW year resolution.
...try again or walk away...

Got the question wrong? YES! It is possible. Childish people lor. Lol. Whatever. Conclusion lar. If any kind of quarrels can lead to the point where both parties wish to end the friendship, end it. I just think that arguments or unhappiness between one another can be solve very easily. Compromising. Cant then DONT bother. Who cares about an asshole who use "I dont want to be your friend anymore" to show their anger. "Dont friend you liao" is for primary school kids. That can be excused. =D ...try again or walk away...

The taste of honey plus sugar plus sweet plus chocolates plus ice-cream cause a terrible toothache. Post torture. BUT =D Hm. How many times will you get the chance to taste honey plus sugar plus sweet plus chocolates plus ice-cream in one go?

Slept hours and hours today. I missed the meeting with Chloe for fruit juice. Just too lazy to go out. I think I have gotten the addiction of putting aeroplane. LOL.

Isnt arguments over trivial matters that escalate into huge fights which end friendships and relationships?
Small matter is not a small matter when you put in your heart. Like if it is trivial matter, I would just let it out and get it over. But some trivial matter let out will cause injuries, so better to keep it inside. I also dunno what I am talking about actually. It takes two hands to clap. Provided both of them are willing to share whatever problems and try the best to compromise. Peace. It is like arguments over trival matters or huge fights that can lead to the end of whatever kind of relationships, it is not even worth to start with. Right?
( WeiHwang : LOL. Think of a better topic. End my post too soon. =D )

...try again or walk away...

Shopping SPREE~~~ My mama bought a pair of diamond earrings for me!! =D
DIAMOND~~ HAHAHA. I Love DIAMONDS. =D

She spent almost a hundred at wallet shop buying christmas presents. And she bought a wallet for me too!! Benefits of going shopping with mama. Buying without paying. Bought 2 pairs of colour lens and a year of supply normal lens. I bought a nice tape dispenser for my sister. I never buy any clothes lar. So? Who wants to go shopping with me again?

By the way we could take a lot of free umbrellas. Like typical aunties. We took 2 in the end. Trying to look nice. But regretted as soon as we left. Should take more lar. The umbrella is cute.

ENJOYED MY DAY~~ SHOPPING SHOPPING AND SHOPPING~~ =D
...try again or walk away...

Something I realise very long. But haven got the chance to blog. I kept forgetting I still have this topic.

Whenever Birthdays is close, I will receive or ask this question "What do you want for your birthday?" Saying no need, thanks is just a form of courtesy. Even you replied no need to the person who asked you that particular question, will no matter what still get you something. Unless he is those heartless people who ask for the sake of asking lar. I like people telling me what they want so it will be convenient. Seriously, whenever I get this question I will think very hard for that very something to be received without being too expensive of course.

Hm. Blogging about what you want is something disgraceful? I dont think so. It is just a way of sharing information. Dont worry about that. =D Just continue to blog like me. Straight-forward. Please remember blogger is an online diary. Only thing is that it can be viewed by millions of people.

CHALET~~~
27 DECEMBER!!!
MY 18th BIRTHDAY~~~~~

26 is exclusively for 2F 2002 classmates.
Come down anytime after 00:00 on the 27 DEC.

~~~Balloons

...try again or walk away...

At Wisma. =D This is what I want. Dont mind if it's just the doll.
All proceeds go to MILK ( mainly I love kids ). THIS is an Act of CHARITY!!!!
Hurry. Before it's too late. =D

...try again or walk away...

Life isn't complete without some illusion. Capricorn LOL. LOL = Lack of Love. A sophisticated person. More busy than bored?

I did something to my hair today. And it is very funny. Lucky is for a day only. Haha. LinJie is suitable for many many looks. I have beautiful features. =D

Transfered to BJ8!!! Doesnt matter. Near my house. Hope I wont be late too often.

Her passions run deep, and so does her impact. Long after transitory affairs have run their courses, this smoldering siren will hold her place in a man's affections. Cherish her, honor her, love her, respect her. She'll pay you back in the richest coin of the realm--the kind of loving relationship that lasts.

I am addicted to horoscope.


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