Lost in thought, and drifting away...

Why asked why? Why not ask why not? REALLY a very difficult thing to do. Is the nerves or is the brain? Whatever it is, still in me. The only person who can lift that away is nobody but me. The mind is such a loser. So reluctant to win. I can control my fingers to press the keyboard and the keypad but. Hais. End up. I am STILL emo-ing. Is there something I can do? Like maybe something. ARRRggg~~ You think you care for me more than anyone or anything else? Watching too much dramas is bad. Dreaming away~~ EEEEMO. Drink too much. Talking like a drunk person. Hais. Holidays didnt help. Are you waiting for me? If you had a chance to choose again knowing exactly what it will turn out to be, will you still choose the same thing as you did? ...try again or walk away...