Is a kind of disappointment and an unwanted awkwardness. -.-" ...try again or walk away...

In a daze, at a lonely night. That call didnt come. Bottled up inside like always. Nothing comes out. Can I cry now? Cos I am big girl now, I am not allowed to. Sad for a different reason. I guess "no matter what happens, I will always be here for you" was not a promise. I need you now. I really dont know what else I can do. I feel so sad. Hais.

Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you ...try again or walk away...

Cold sweat. I didnt wan to know all that. Secrets? Omg. Hais. What am I suppose to say? Why tell me? Argh. Its quite impossible not to think about it. I have a kind soul and I dont wan to accumulate more bad karma. I dont want to go to hell. Hais. Who want to listen and promise not to tell anyone? Call me, thanks. ...try again or walk away...

I feel so sad. So sad still. I dont like the weather now. Sad. Hais. Sad. Very sad. Hais. You know? I am sad. Exams are over but I still feeling so damn sad. Why? Going to work later. Hais. Sad. ...try again or walk away...

I feel so sad. Heaven is crying for me. Crying for me the whole day. I feel so sad still. Because it is still raining. I am afraid that I couldnt pass this semester, so afraid. Thinking lots of possibilities, the day when I view my results at the student portal. I forgot formula. Hais. I flipped the exam paper once, I could do well and pass with rainbow colours. I forgot the formula for almost all the questions in a split second. I am so sad. SAD. I am going to bang the wall real hard if I were to fail. Hais. I am so sad. Look at the sky, can it just stop raining? Sad. =(( Hais.

...try again or walk away...

I not feeling good seh. I think my bad karma is increasing. Evil thoughts up there. (maybe not really evil, i know its not good). Anyone need me to do good deeds? Dividing into small parts, life in school is not so different ar. Waiting for the results seemed to be the priority of all. Laughs. Efforts are not really recognised in those papers, especially if they are out to make you miserable. So, dear classmates, leave it to fate. CHEER UP!! Tomorrow will be a better day. =DD

忽然有点想你
你今天快乐吗? ...try again or walk away...

Why worry?! Wont fail. Please believe in yourself. Laughs. Anyway, failure is also not the end of the world. FAILURE paves the way to success. Today chalet cannot go. =(( SO, must PASS MUST MUST MUST!!!!! 1 down. 2 more to go. Jia YOU~~!! =DD ...try again or walk away...

Less than 10 hours to my first exam paper. This is the greatest distraction. I am studying real hard!!! WHERE CAN I HIDE NOW?!! Cries* and run!!! Jared save me~ E-learning. Online for the slides and self-inflicted injury. Very funny lar. Go study, dont think too much liao. Stand by me! I CANNOT FAIL. C A N N O T fail. Thanks DEARS & DARLINGS!! =))

Do you wish to know what is going on?
I wish I knew.

窗外的雨停了天空还是灰的
因为爱情也停止了
回忆在播放着在笑容里停格
画面会永远留着

...try again or walk away...

I was supposed to study real hard but I fall asleep. I dreamt of an incident and I wake up feeling so sad. Because I always think that I cant let go. Actually I can. I read back the posts and I realised why everytime the start came to an end. It was all the assumption made. Somehow we do say trust, but in a fact that we dont. For the whole year, I hold a grudge for someone who supposed to know better. Someone who didnt believe me. Like a revenge of some kind, dont bother trying to resolve issues. As days passed, regrets took place. Hoping that someday, they understand what actually happened. Untied the knot, everything was almost back to normal. Left with good old memories infiltrated with some unwanted memories. It was getting used to having someone around to talk and the sudden loss seemed like world's end. This is part of life. Just sharing some random thoughts. I am trying to untied the other knot, although I can sense that my knot is too complicated. I am trying. ...try again or walk away...

According to blog ethics. Lol.

Answer the following questions.

1.(the person who tag you is …)- Aaron
2.(your relationship with him/her is …)- Friends
3.(your 5 impressions of him/her ..)- -.-" I am stuck.
4.(the most memorable thing he/she had done for you)- nothing.
5.(the most memorable words he/she had said to you)- nothing.
6.(if he/she becomes your lover, you will..)- -.-
7.(if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be)- ~..~
8.(if he/she becomes your enemy, you will…)- Skin him alive?
9.(if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be …)- offend me.
10.(the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is …)- finish this quiz
11.(your overall impression of him/her is …)- a friend.
12.(how you think people around you will feel about you?)- every positive remarks
13.(the character you love of yourself is …)- smart. every good things.
14.(on the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is …)- stubborn
15.(the most ideal person you want to be is …)- someone with endless cash to spend.
16.(for people that care and like you, say something to them ..)- I love you. =DD
17.(pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)
(TRY NOT TO PEEP AT THE QUESTION BELOW BEFORE WRITING DOWN THE NAME..)1. JARED
2. HuiJun
3. MeiHui
4. ZiLin
5. YingYing
6. SoonMing
7. WanSia
8. WeiHwang
9. XiaoYun
10. Benjamin

(who is no.6 having relationship with?)- No one.
(Is no.9 a male or female?)- Female
(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?)- No idea.
(How about no.8 and 5?)- Darren Tan will be very sad.
(What is no.2 studying about?)- Economics & Finance
(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?)- Sunday.
(What kind of music band does no.8 like?)- McFly that type. Some funny music.
(Does no.1 has any siblings?)- Dont know. LOL.
(Will you woo no.3?)- Only no.1
(How about no.7?)- Can consider.
(Is no.4 single?)- No.
(What’s the surname of no.5?)- LEE
(What’s the name of no.10?)- Tang Jiong Gen
(What’s the hobby of no.4?)- Lol. NO idea. so dead~
(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?)- Yeah. The LEE sisters.
(Where is no.2 studying at?)- SIM
(Talk something casually about no.1)- He is CUTE. =))
(Have you try developing feelings for no.8?)- Laughs*
(Where does no.9 live?)- Serangoon
(What color does no.4 like?)- Green.
(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?)- Dont think so.
(Does no.7 likes no.2?)- She dont know her.
(How do you get to know no.2?)- Classmates in 2001 & 2002
(Does no.1 have any pets?)- Dont know.

...try again or walk away...

My 4th lesson. Smooth driving till the last 10 mins. My mind was drifting somewhere. I stepped the clutch and the brake at the same time. Laughs* That was only the last 10 mins. Who wants to go arcade? Lets go play the initial D~ CA results out. B B B+. B+ for marketing. Weirdo. I predict my EXAMS grade would be F F F. Studying hard now. 4 days left. My heart is beating FAST. Never been listening in class and studying for this semester. Wondering what is distracting me for this two months. LOL. Tell me now~

不想你把心放空
满身的失落
...try again or walk away...

JARED~~!!! =DD Look at my wishlist!! ...try again or walk away...

Relapsed.
...try again or walk away...

Really forgotten about posting of the photos. Laughs*
One Photo for conclusion. Lazy*
Birthday girl stated.
Dear WeiNi,
Stay HAPPY =))


I was looking back at the photos taken before, I feel ugly now. Omg. Hais. Only feel ugly lar, I know I am pretty still, ok? Is the "feel-ugly day" today. I AM not. =))
...try again or walk away...

IRRITATING!! STUPID people say I need to be GENTLE. ZZZ. Lol. Bth. I now multi-tasking, OMG~~ Is so funny!!! IS SO VERY VERY FUNNY~ Actually is asking me to keep long hair for him. HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! Only 180 and above high of a man can give me a sense of security. Lol. He always said no wonder all the guys left me except him, BUT is NOT entirely TRUE. Because I am STILL ATTRACTIVE with SHORT hair. Msn Flirting FIGHT between the two PASTA man~~ What are you doing? Missing you lor! How are you? Missing you everyday. HOW can that be possible?!!! THE exact SAME reply I gotten from TWO different MALE species. This shows one thing MAN = lousy. Holidays are coming. So the dating game comes back. FLIRTS~

I went for my third driving lesson in a dreamy mood. I forgot to step on the clutch when I wan to change the gear from third to forth. I EH! so loud and we both laugh after realising the fact. HAHA. Omg. Real dreaming. I like U-turn better than right turn. I need to see the road~ Will try to love everything soon. =)) My test date is 16 JAN!! Learn and be smart. I wish I could pass on the first try. ...try again or walk away...

Trying very hard not to think so much but I guess it becomes a habit, bad habit. Hais. Calm down. Found out that there is another way to pretend. I just cant seem to remember what is happening. ...try again or walk away...

I am having so much things to do now. Exams coming, still working and learning driving. Not going to school today, cos of the tight feeling inside. Emo once more. August 17, I just cant remember what is happening. Hais. Drifting away~ I missed my long hair. I need shorter hair. Sians. A lot more quieter. But still as distracting as usual. I think of all the time I've wasted. I am wasting it again. Zzz..

Maybe to the world he is just one person
but to me................................................
像我这样的人不多，
为什么还要让我
如此 难过。。。 ...try again or walk away...

I just came back from my 2nd driving lesson. I drove to punggol for a round of warm-up and to ubi. Driving round round and see those double L plates. HOHOHO. I was kind enough not to sabo them. And to Ang Mo Kio. U-turn. BACK home~ I am SMART~!!! $$ well spent!! Although my pocket is burnt, its WORTH!!! ...try again or walk away...

Bad luck curse. I lost my ezlink CARD again after top-ing up $20 from the exchange of my blood and sweat. FUCK!!! The second time after I lost my NYP ezlink card with the recently purchased concession pass. WHAT IS THIS???!!!! SO UNLUCKY!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK~~~!!!!!! Hais~ Good luck fairy please come and save me~~ ...try again or walk away...

My first driving lesson. OMG~~ OMG~~ TIRED ARRR...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEINI!!!!
Upload the photos tomorrow. Need sleep. =))
...try again or walk away...

Uncle gave me a ride home after work. I am not suppose to tell anyone that he is so nice to me. BUT I think I could share this joy with you about the fact that I am well-liked by people. I almost quarrel with Owen today again. LOL. She kept nagging and nagging. Fucking irritating. Just feel like giving her 2 slaps and shut her mouth. Ok. No guts. Say nia. Give me 2 numbers. 38. Haha. I forgot my file and textbook. How forgetful am I. I need to study hard, please dont distract me with temptations. Enough for the night. Gone~ ...try again or walk away...

Drink lots of water. Get well soon. Take care. =)) An apple a day keeps the doctor away. Weather is not good, thats why high percentage of people are in the sick mode. I think I should start being a sweet girl so that all the wilted flowers and dry leaves I can THROW them away. Putting that one seed, giving the best soil, and the sunlight. I promise to water it with enough water. One day, it will grow into pink clove. Great!!
The problem is that I dont state the name. And always kena assumptions. I wonder how many pair of eyes are looking at the post. LinJie blog for so long. I nvr tried a day to compromise for readers to understand my post ever since I dont blog those "I woke up in the morning go brush my teeth and then and then and then." -.-"
Example: I think is quite obvious if I said I love you. The you meant YOU. That was then. AND now YOU is just a you who is someone out there I still dont know.
That was just an example. 对号入座。JOKERS and STRANGERS.
...try again or walk away...

Secret. =))

5 words as a simple definition for those who dont know the real meaning of friends.
To be there for you.
Because friends dont use words with hidden meaning, as in the evil kind of hidden meaning. The last thing you ever want to get, me being mean for life. I think there is no much different between the two sex of human. Sex discrimination. Anyway, that ladies first rule dont apply to me.

A piece of advice to all blog writers. 2 different type of blogging, public and private. Private is for your own reading. Public is for readers. Think, if you have a brain. My one word advice today. Think.

I just cant leave my blogger alone for long. Less than a hundred to my first ever 4 digit post. Dont force me to. I am not sacrificing the only one-way communication channel I had, for something so damn fucking irritating which shouldnt be here if my path was the right one. Need better luck. ...try again or walk away...

Uncle told me a lot of stories. One part about finding the right one. Laughs* He said there is no such thing about love. OMG. How sad. Quite true ar if that few years of feelings were fake. I guess there is really no love in the world. Maybe. I dont mind being busy. But this is not how not to think. Argh. What am I talking about?!!

习惯了有你在身边
不能习惯没你
...try again or walk away...

I had a sweet dream last night. But I wonder how did the disgusting abigial<--the ugly actress get into my dreamland. -.-" I realised the strangers are starting to appear in my life increasingly. I dont like strangers. Because you said say it mean it. I am not sure what am I going to say now.

除了想你，除了爱你，我什么都愿意。 ...try again or walk away...

Nothing left to say. This is called the ultimate indifferent behaviour. Something is just cant be forced cos it shows. How much effort or how helpless, it shows. I see no reason for me to get upset because this is how it should be. I am a very straightforward kind of person. Think what I think. You should be able to understand why am I behaving like this.
Every single day, every single second, I see the extreme differences. Hais. Why do I miss you so much? That is my weakness and the worst part ever.
心甘情愿。 ...try again or walk away...

The 900th post. As a DEDICATION TO THE FRIENDS INDEED!!
BIG BIG Thank YOU all who tried the best to help me with my marketing project. I am very grateful to all. Eunice, Sherry, Aminah, SongWei, WeiHwang, XiaoYun, Yiru, QiuYing and everyone else who gave me the moral support when I am so stressed up. Thats what friends are for right? I never expect this sentence. LinJie feels *Gan Dong*. Before I forget, and thanks to that Mr WeiQuan for his Useful product review. When you are grateful, you say thanks. When you feel sorry, you say sorry. Is it true? Anyway, I just slack my weekends when I am suppose to be doing my marketing carefully. I can do better if only I want to. LOL. My devil beside just keep telling me a pass is good enough. So, lets dont hope for too much. Upcoming will be my EXAMS. Hohoho. 2 subjects for memorising and 1 more for practising. I need to work and I want to learn driving. Can give me 48 hours a day? I will fully utilise it. I want to go for a holiday this September. AND just tell me there are no more air-tickets? This is so ridiculous. Messy messy~~

My mind keeps drifting back to things we said this morning
Now I'm sitting here alone, watching the world pass me by
...try again or walk away...

I am taking a break. What is the big deal about that stupid assignment?! Quite big actually. HAHA~ Relax a few minutes AND race against time. I love to see their happy faces. Said to be the medication of "not-so-happy" sickness. =DD
...try again or walk away...

I realised I know very little. Pushing the anger aside, I am now sad. I really dont know much. Maybe I worry too much for doing a good job ar. Cant adapt the sudden change, from the indifferent attitude. Laughs. Ok. Relax!!! Glad to have friends like them. =)) A friend in need is a friend indeed. =)) *winks*
...try again or walk away...

I am so not going to CARE about what excuses I hear now. Which is more important? All sorts of explanation? HA! No need. I am pissed. So UNTRUE and this is not assumption. FACTS. I am not joking at all. Just dont deny or pretend. Even worse than liars who go hell. "I am so sorry I knocked you down because you never look at the road." Dont say this kind of "sorry" to me. More angry now. ZZZZZ. Dont want to say anything more. Unbelieveable.

...try again or walk away...

You can always say NO if you HATE people who ask you to send your precious work. Spell N O, NO. ZZZZZZZ. Not as if you know me for the first time. How many times have I said "rubbish" as a reply before. Thanks for your SACARCISM. I swear upon my 2 horsey lifes, I am not speaking to you about "works" in my entire EDUCATION life. Curse myself for asking the wrong person and HOPE I will get a chance to hide my face. Learn WHAT to say and learn WHAT NOT to say, never offend ME in a wrong way. Can do it OPENLY. *Annoyed*



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Keeping myself motivated is not as easy as what you think it is. LOL. Before I going to continue my speech, I need to do something. Switching on the 16 degree thingy and begin. Haha.

If I asked you something you always hide, will you tell me still? By the way, if I do sound like I am interested, I am not. If it is meant to be, it is meant to be. If it is not, it is not. Everything will start with if. "If" is usually not going to happen. So, I know if you said you realise that you made a mistake, it is not going to happen. That is how "trust no one" came about. LOL.

Dear STELLA,
I miss you!!!

Okay~ Back to doing the marketing project.

...try again or walk away...

No energy at all to open the file for Marketing. Yawning 10 times per second. I need sleep. GO SCHOOL ON TIME!!! Highly motivated by September. Rejecting all false hope. =)) It is very useful to have dreams~ Goodnight!!

How to give up when you cant even let go?
Maybe I will know, if you teach me how. ...try again or walk away...

CONGRATS~~!!! Your dearest LinJie passed her final theory on the first try.
Forget that 2 times I took to pass my basic. But can you believe it? I passed!!! Must be the energy and good luck boost I got from HuiHui. I went to NYP and she treat me lunch~~ =)) THANKS~ HuiHui treats me the best(today). Haha. I am so very the happy. When I see passed on the screen, I just hope that you will be there to see how wide my smile is. Haha~~ Next would be the booking of driving lessons. Maybe not so soon. Recommend me one good instructor who teach well and no scolding. Please be kind enough to sms ME!!
NOW here is the not-so-happy part.
Accounting assignment, I never contribute ANYthing at all lar. Omg. Sad. Shows my moral support!!! IVAN JIA YOU~~ Lol. MARKETING PROJECT!!! Tough. Omg. I am panick-ing. Why worry?? I am in good mood. EVERYthing will go smoothly for me!!
VIIIVIII~~ YippeeAiAi~~

...try again or walk away...

I want to watch Secret.


What could have been? Lol. Nah~~
Hey! I am going to take my final theory later in the afternoon.
I think I am going to fail. LOL. Lets hope for a miracle k? For me.
I missed almost all the classes this semester,
so, at the same time pray for another miracle to happen please~
Haha'S'.

Listen very closely........
*whispers*
dontwantnobodyelse


...try again or walk away...