Eventually, what goes around comes back around. Its not that I dont know how dumb it can be. But third time was addiction. Hurting myself to addiction and to blindly believe the truth right in front. Someone has a new life and new friends while I am still stuck in the same place trying to get over. Laughs. Like this is the way it is supposed to be. I thought it would turn out fine because I was content to see just the smile. Right to my face you can say that you are just using me. Knowing the things to say. Not anymore now, I cared too much about that term. OF all the words choice, its an acknowledgement. Keep emphasizing for? I dont know why. Hi, bastard~
Laughing at myself. I think we should be quits. Congrats!!
...try again or walk away...

I always have an issue with the terms being used. Classmates, colleagues or casual friends. Cant change my thinking. It was implanted in my brain long long ago for me to make sure of the differences. Someone to be there for the sake of being there. Some are called the "dont have to be there" people. Many many differences. Thats why I say different. Lol. I've been watching the TV the whole night. I missed the TV so so so much and I just keep switching channels for different shows. Unknowingly it was already 2 am. Shopping for ingredients tomorrow. Long time since I cooked. Hope my skills dont turn rusty. I've got a six sense that I will be rotting away. Please dont let it come true~

Mr Les. told me a million times not to put airplane for his prawning trip.
Look who's talking. Lol. Get well soon to drive me home! Take care~ =DD

I never stopped to begin thinking about the process.
You have 5 kinds of smile.
Last one is the smile you have when you looked at me.

...try again or walk away...

I have nothing more to say. I have nothing to do with you anymore. So stay clear and make way. Please take note of what you told me and please think clearly of the words to use before saying. I am fustrated all the inputs and dont add problems for me. If you dont know, dont be a busybody. Assume is always wrong. Water in the well dont mix with water in the river. b y e. ...try again or walk away...

Dear All,
Your friend here is sad and is like very very very sad. I dont have a very good reason for this overwhelming sadness. I am trying to focus what I am doing now and I get irritated very easily. Either you say something useful or you fuck off. Because of the bad weather, I feel so sick. Do you know? This is the easiest thing to say. How to make it ok now? I am not afraid of anything else but this virus. It's attacking~~ OMG!! I will be back to normal as soon as possible.
...try again or walk away...

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you~
...try again or walk away...

Knowing what to say and knowing what not to say. Doing the right thing. No worries.

Life can be such a bastard at times. Slowly you will learn, character needs to change is close to impossible. Standing from an outsider view, no amount of time can change an arse. Count yourself unlucky, or lucky so to learn from mistakes. Dont trust anyone.

Money is the root of all EVILS. Earn yourself, spent yourself and save yourself. They dont drop from the sky. And parents are not there to feed you for a lifetime. Blood and sweat is what they exchanged to give you a good life. Dont ever take it for granted.

Ok. I am so sorry, I always pon-ing class. I am wasting my mama blood and sweat. Mama says you know what you doing and you are happy, thats the most important. Dont worry about the money. Mama only wants to see LinJie happy. =DD I love you.

Anyone looking for a full-time job?
Please SMS me if you are interested.
Salary amount can be discussed.

Doesn't see what he has until she leaves
Please just admit you're wrong~

...try again or walk away...

Better than never right? Exist. Dont scold me an idiot. Listen and think for me. I hope to be understand. I need holidays. ZZZ. When mahjong dont lift up my spirits, I can only depend on reading Harry Potter from the 1st book. You did it on purpose right? But do you think I care? No, I dont. Pointless kind of debation. I dont know how to be fine when I'm not.
Just so you know~
...try again or walk away...

Read Aaron blog. Nice mouse-y story.
The next time you hear someone is facing a problem and think it doesn’t concern you. Remember.
The world could hardly hide the worse
The first time I went out of my mind
...try again or walk away...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANNA~~

Go GO GO~~~!!!!! CHIONG FOR THE ASSIGNMENTS!!!!!
My motivation for going to school~~~ =DD
My dears are coming to join me in this "sucking like hell" school.
JI BI JI BA BOOM~~ H A P P Y girl!! =DD

Sorry WanSia!!! I am really really really sorry.
I swear I will make it up for you. Please forgive me.
Sorry~~

I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything
...try again or walk away...

On Friday, there were so many activities going on. End up, I cant meet up with Davin and KKK for dinner. Guess what? We (& huijun, meihui) saw Davin. So long we were standing in front of him talking. All of a sudden, "EH!!" So like surprised. I think I am kind of sensitive to how a guy behave. He stood up to offer his seat like we were the old ladies. Reached Orchard to get the presents. We went to Forum for our dinner. This is interesting. An interesting night with the girls and 2 more girls' boys. Post photos soon. =D ...try again or walk away...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY MOULDY ALGAE!!!
STAY HAPPY!!!
MAY YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!!!

My mama sent me an amazing sms. I didnt realise I was different at home and outside nowadays. What am I suppose to reply? Lol.
So I smiled and tried to mean it. To make myself let go~
She couldnt wait. I love you came too late~ ...try again or walk away...

It was a very happening night. Met MaoJie and ZhenRu for dinner and talks. Bring up some old time jokes and realised that people grow. Updates of schoolmates. And I was almost knocked down again. The car was like stopping to let me pass but the next minute I stepped out, the car like want to bang me. You heard the 2 screaming " LINJIE!!! " and I see the lady in front of me jumped. This is WTF. We saw Chen WeiLian at mos burger. I see mj and he see me. We LAUGHED. We are having endless bad karma. After Orchard, AMK, Khatib, Seletar, Serangoon, Changi. I donated $4 to someone I sense as a conman. I considered myself one good deed done. Due to some miscommunication, I kena attitude by SongWei. Not my fault. And his group became angry at them about the changing of venue and didnt turn up. Yawns. Get used to it ba. Its a small thing after all. SiJi was the new driver today. Privilege of sitting beside because we are the "cold" gang. Food and games. High Five with YaoHuang. This is FUN!! See those frustrated faces, I choose to ignore. Not my problem anyway, I will sing my song. Changi see them drink coffee. All drink coffee. Haha, sure cannot sleep. A bit wasted all the way down didnt get to the beach or see some planes cos its going to rain. Friday night is slacking night. A brand new day. Waiting for the sun to rise. ...try again or walk away...

No~ No~ No~~~ Let the rain falls down and wake my dreams.
This is just so what I want. A new beginning FOR ALL~~
BACK IN ACTION!! WORKING MADNESS IS COMING BACK!!
A brand new DAY ahead. Dont mess with ME anyMORE!!
...try again or walk away...

This is not the first time. I AM FUCKING IRRITATED AND SO FUCKING ANGRY. I cant find my keys, I cant leave my house cos nobody is around to help me lock the door. I turned my house upside down for an hour. My keys was on my bed. Dumb fuck. AND I cant find my ezlink card. AND I STILL CANT FIND IT. I went to wait for cab. I saw AUNTIES flagging infront of me at the "on call" & "hired" cabs. Dont know for wad also. WA KAO!! This is when the NBCB comes in handy. I came back without going to school. 24 days more in SIM without pon-ing. HOW am I going to survive?!! Chill. 16 degrees with 2 more fans.
YUP!!
My motivation of going to school will be here soon. 30th!! ...try again or walk away...

I sense your joy. =)) ...try again or walk away...

Stupefy! ...try again or walk away...

I see no reason why we should keep up this situation, do you?
Can we talk? A sms that reads "I miss you.."
离开还装傻 我开口你却沈默
Opps. Be careful of the danger aheads.
She says no more. Please give it one more try!
But she says no more. "I miss you.."
Save it for someone better in 2010. *Points*
Somewhere out there~
...try again or walk away...

New interest developed. =D Glad to see you happy again!! The girl inside my mirror. I think she was my reflection. LOL. ...try again or walk away...

School~ OH!! Makes me yawn. And that freaking internet connection. DOTS. I am irritated. I choose to disappear in this online world if it disconnects one more time.
I will get my answer one fine day. Someone dont bother to even lie about that but I still believe one fine day. And if you could forgive me for being so dumb, I shall forgive you for being such an asshole. LOL!! I am still hesitating of speaking the facts. If only you were here. HAHA~~ (Waiting)
I realise I need time to study my final theory. AND panicked ~~ Projects!!! OMG OMG OMG~ ...try again or walk away...

Cos I need to know. Are you going to pretend you dont know for the rest of your life? Some reasons may change but you know I know you know. Say~ Are you my friend? So, SAY!!
a) really dont know
b) dont want to know
c) waiting
d) playing
e) knowing but
...try again or walk away...

I need rain tonight. Doing CAs on a beautiful Sunday and end up sleeping one whole day doing nothing. I am like staring at the lecture notes with my mind all with Harry Potter. "Stupify" AND then "Avara Kedavra"! WOOSH~~ ...try again or walk away...

New scandals updated. I went back NYP instead of going to SIM. LOL. For Sean because he used the powerful tactic of friendship and the past he did for me. I pang seh him on his birthday because I was lazy. OMG. That is a wrong excuse to use. HAHA. This first time I gave a sorry card to a sissy boy. The most petty boy ever. Anyway, NYP people are still super friendly to me. And I miss them lots. =DD What past is past.

PAST. Do you ever regret? Good question. I always thought I wont. But thats a lie I realised. I do feel a little regret. 如果当时能忍一时之气. Give up that useless pride. Serious. Tan Hee Kiah. LOL. Falling down is not painful, just get up! That stupid pride made me upset for a long long time. The other Sean aka the slack-turer asked me whether I want to go back. Imagine I go back start all over again from year one ar. LOL. Do I Look Like I Freaking Care? Maybe I might in my next life. I will be those girl with no emotions. I wont be angry so easily again. 2am and the rain is falling. LOL. I reach home around 2am after talking with my NYP buddies about some stupid stuffs. ENGQI made me disappointed. He is the same as THEM. Zzz. Fishing rod and fishing net. Lucky, I am born with high intelligence. Laughs*

Maybe I shouldnt said I hate liars. Cos seriously, maybe they are telling the truth. Only thing is that I trust no MAN now. And I think I sort of beginning to hate humans with that thing. They dont THINK with their brains. After saying that I shouldnt get angry over little things. Here am I swearing fucking assholes in front of my com. HAHA~ My inner voice telling me "it's all your fault, what right do you have to be angry about?" That is what he thinks and nothing else I can do. Continue this way is the only thing that can be done. Do I look like I freaking care? Stay away from me. I dont like this kind of FAKE people. So "what if". NO such thing as what if. Go to HELL!!! I dont TRUST you.

...try again or walk away...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SEAN aka the SUPER SISSY BOY!! ~
20 years old. EEEEKKK. That is like so OLD. Sorry boy, lazy to go out. ENJOY K? =DD

Addicted to PON-ing school seh. I WANT TO WATCH HARRY POTTER!!! Learning to say no. Temptation!!! NO NO NO!! Drowning myself with music. Cool~ Was it just an excuse?

请相信爱的可能 甚麽事情都可能
No love is like living dead. =(
...try again or walk away...

Mistrust. How to compromise? I dont regret. But I cant help to wonder how is my life now if I never withdraw from my course then. LOL. I am beginning to get sick of SIM. I am not interested in doing anything now. Close eyes close ears. Dont talk to me. I will be back to normal soon. Give me a break.
...try again or walk away...

*LAUGHS* I forgot to put some lol and haha in the previous post ar. HAHA!!! Please ok? Look at me, if I am LAUGHING and SMILING like one kind every day. There is something wrong up there. NOT going to post anything else without some 'haha's and 'lol's anymore. So not cool. LOL!!! Omg. It will be your lost for not knowing what a beautiful, pretty, adorable and cheerful girl like me is thinking and feeling at this very moment. Sometimes you can pretend you didnt see anything. But, you know I know you know. =D Edit to previous post for misunderstanding NOT again. I am so kind. Blogging for readers. ZZZZ...... ...try again or walk away...

I have better things to do. YUP!!! BETTER THINGS TO DO~ Sleeping!! July. One year ago, I am in this same mood. Lol. Do not go school, do not go out and just stay at home rot. I am just wasting time again now. Haha. How? I am NOT is a good condition now. Dots. Lol. Zzz. Entertain-ing others is like my job. TIRED ar. Psychologically drained. HAHA. Motivation please. What I want is to know what I need. What I need is to know what I want. Lol. MotivatION!! Can someone call me just not because they need me? Can you call me because you know I need you now? Hais. LOL. Hais. Purpose!! YAR!!! TELL ME~~ =DD

Tell me what's the reason that you hold on,
When you know that dude
has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime
...try again or walk away...

Ten 2F girls excluding myself. MY SISTERS.
Introducing them to my friends from everywhere.
Visit http://linjie127.livejournal.com/ for more.

...try again or walk away...

Madness, madness, MADNESS. This is SPARTAAAAAA!!!!!!!!

Keep asking me the same thing, I might ran out of excuses. Forgive me if I used the ultimate deadly excuse which no one ever revive unless a long term recovering process in the hospital. LOL. Turning darkness into light. Please use the candles. And practice good listening skills like me. ...try again or walk away...

Happy 21st Birthday To Mr Cai XianMing! =DD
Best wishes~
It is not wu liao. When a friend you didnt meet up for a long time, you will want to know how she is doing right? Diao. I mean even like for a cup of tea or maybe just a 5 minutes talk to get the updates. Knowing your friends are doing well and let them know you are doing well. It's worth making that small effort. I only do that to people I know who will care, so dont say that it is wu liao. I like talking to Patricia and WanSia. =DD
I forgot I suppose to meet Chloe for tea today and there is a chalet later. ARR.
...try again or walk away...

Part of my life. You. Were.
...try again or walk away...

It wasnt simple. I try. I am laughing more than usual. I am driving myself crazy. Seeing people walking like so fast. Seeing them with something to do. I bound to forget something important. I mean nothing to you now. Lol. And I can do nothing to be your everything. I will do everything to give you up. Pull MY hairs!! Not worth not worth. No one is worth my nights but I dreamt of you last night. Haha. Shh. Dont ask me. Yup. The realistic world. "I miss you" wasnt difficult to say at all.

...try again or walk away...

First week of school, there is no way I am going to be left alone at home with nothing to do. But I am drifting away. I was staring into space when I am supposed to be shopping with Weng just now. Lol. He is like so irritated that I am not listening to what he is talking for like so many times. Maybe I am just being tired. Went back after lunch and one round of walk at the scotts area. LOL. And he chased me off. TADA!! I am back~

Why nobody feels sorry for me? Poor guy. I am poor girl too. But mine is no money kind of poor lar. Damage inflicted by someone with damage inflicted. Lol. Wrong person and wrong time was the most common thing to happen. Still in the learning process and getting used.
And the reasons they may change but what I'm feeling stays the same. ...try again or walk away...

Madness. ...try again or walk away...

It's ok to cry every once in a while but dont do it too often ok?
Big girls dont cry. I love you. =))

Pigs can fly~ =DD Smile always!!

2nd day of class. Marketing. First half no energy to laugh at all. My mouth cant curve. I thought she might be tired after one hour plus of high pitch lame stuffs. She really can continue. Why Disney is not Singapore makes me excited for the 2nd half of the lesson. I want that answer!! LAUGHS*

Vivo with my mama and mama de mama. Yup! Pretty. Grandma say dont keep long hair anymore cos short hair is more pretty. I went to make a new specs. My eyesight degree decrease. This shows that I dont play computer very often. Haha.
...try again or walk away...

I dont know why you do that for. But I know there is a reason for it. I hope I believe now. Everyone else dont understand, I think I do and I hope you do too. I wont pretend I dont know anymore. You know very well I am not that kind of girl. I pay you double. Making things complicated is an easy task for me.

Chimilogy. Can try to figure out. I wont say. Dont ASK. No guts. Maybe someday later. When I am sure the answer dont matter anymore, I will ask. The sweetest torture is waiting. =DD My someday later. Lol. Winnie the pooh wife and kid. *Laughs*

...try again or walk away...

I thought Transformers was a rubbish kind of movie. BUT. Since it was highly recommended by friends. I went to watch it with Lester this afternoon after my lesson.



The kind and rich KaiZi. All expenses covered. Cool~ I am too tired for dinner. Zzz. Lol. I thanked him for the nice lunch and movie treat. But he said taxpayer's money = his money = taxpayer's money. Thanks to all taxpayers and for the GST increase is not necessary a bad thing. Think positive. =DD Lester is a nice friend introduced from MeiHui. So we are supposed to go out dinner today to celebrate his POP but mh cannot make it. He dont mind watching movie alone with me so. Yup. Thats it. I dont know why I need to explain. For SoonMing I guess. If not he will talk rubbish again as always. I am kind too. =DD

The first day of a new semester was good except the heavy notes I had to carry around. Projects!! I always love projects. -.- Like as if. Grades are the most important, others dont matter right? Ask ZiLin scold SUCKER for me please. Okok, stop being an asshole with many many complains. Schools ARE always like this. Live with it. =DD

I AM HAPPY with my girlfriends. I like 2nd half of the year. More birthdays, more laughing occasions and definitely more happy than usual. I miss my Ah Ma!! Tomorrow~~ =DD I am waiting for her to say I am prettier each day.

Bye!
...try again or walk away...

What done is done. What past is past. SIAM is useless now. No need SIAM. =DD

The whole day of laughing mahjong. =DD I like the ladies game. Ying2 is damn asshole cum bastard lar. All 1 tai 2 tais games. Kaoz!!! Idiot. Qing Chang De Yi and Du Chang Shi Yi is VERY GOOD for her. I like no win no lose. =DD Charity~~ Fun!! Laughs. I almost kena raped to put lipstick. New lipstick to play with. YAR. WISHLIST edited. I shall keep my own wish =))

WARNING to long lost friends ar, read my blog please tag. Dont disappear and gone. AND dont be so sneaky. READ, PLEASE TAG. Once a while is better than nothing to let me know you still my friend. =DD Love you~
...try again or walk away...