Lost in thought, and drifting away...

it just keeps spinning spinning and spinning.. know the banana in pyjamas? are you thinking wad i am thinking.. lost.. there is so much things i wished i could tell you.. u dont believe me.. liars go to hell right? why are you still here? out of the sudden, i feel so cheated.. i told you is out of sudden.. dun ask me why.. even though i know u wont.. ending everything with who fuckin' cares.. i am trying.. me or you? does it really matters? tell me.. does it? torturing my brain.. the cells is depleting.. all mushrooms are poisonous.. yup.. ALL.. dont need excuses.. dont need reasons.. dont need the answers.. standing by me.. silent.. messing everything.. fuckers and liars.. saved myself i didnt believe you.. thank you for lying.. there wont be anyday u regret.. me too.. i wont.. i wasnt that innocent.. stop staring me this way.. why are you still coming back? remember.. it is more than enough.. cant take it.. please leave.. exploded.. taking my time.. fixing back slowly.. final.. the end.. to be continued.. 10 years later.. 5 years ago.. ...try again or walk away...