i turn up for school today and!!! ayob lessons was doing nothing.. we were waiting for him for so long.. shake head.. i should have reach home 3 hours earlier.. erm.. haha.. i played chinese chess in class with them.. although there is only one chess, all the while i am playing it.. they nice la.. din chase me away.. i juz kept playing.. haha.. i lost so many rounds.. so disappointing.. haha.. hm.. ya.. and outside south canteen.. i burst into a loud loud laughter when sherlyn said something stupid.. and a group of guys pass by.. omg.. nvr notice got handsome one not.. haiz.. all sherlyn fault.. sad.. haha.. that is my joke of the day.. go liao.. byebye.. ...try again or walk away...

i skipped school today again.. and think i will be getting the warning letter soon.. haha.. hack care.. who asked them to put the lesson at 8 in the morning.. knowing that i reach home almost 12 the previous night.. hm.. so din go to school i went out with my mama and sis.. attention:!!! to early to say but this is the first announcement : 27 of december this year.. BBQ at east coast park AREA C pit 22 and 23!! please keep urself free.. i will go around asking pple 2 weeks later.. so prepare to promise me that you will make it ya.. stella : thank you!!! haha.. you are the sweetest girl i have ever met.. haha.. i dun have anything i wan.. juz hope that most will turn up on that day.. haha.. and the present i wan i already told soonming to get it for me liao.. so dont bother.. haha.. soonming right? haven u decide which one? or going to get both? haha.. anyway thanks for offering help ya.. and i will that leave those materials up to you.. if we have lacking items and it will be your fault.. HAHA!! so should i start worrying who will turn up or worry about the amount of food to purchase? tian qi he ren yi yang hor? shuo bian jiu bian.. me stay here.. if i see you next to never, how....?<-- be it la.. haha.. now i found a new entertainment.. reply to the song that is playing..

...try again or walk away...

yup.. i booked the bbq pits le.. at east coast.. area C.. pit 22 and 23.. guess i will onli be inviting mjr friends.. if not will be erm.. weird? haha.. will ask u 2 weeks later.. juz hope that all could go.. and hope it doesn't rain.. haha.. got to go sleep le.. tired.. ...try again or walk away...

then i might breakdown and cry just like a child.. must make up my mind now.. nvr knew i have to make this kind of choice.. should i should i not? sing sing and juz sing.. anyway.. if i book a bbq pit on my bdae who will come? ...try again or walk away...

as i thought i wont be here.. now i am.. disappointed? nope.. i hope so.. i went to meritus mandrain<-- cant remember the spelling.. the hotel beside taka.. 35 storey.. wow.. the view.. beautiful.. work for about 3.5 hours? fast and easy? i wan to have dinner and dance too.. nice.. hm.. yup.. really nice.. the event was sony ericsson annual dinner and dance.. ar.. every one was carrying k750 i w800 i w900 i !! haven seen one with a nokia phone of course.. haha.. reminds me of my poor k700i.. i think he misses his owner very much.. my k700i is a he by the way.. he love to take pics of his owner.. i am sure he misses me like i misses him.. where are you my love? come back please? anyway back to wad i have done today.. i skip the first lesson again.. cos i woke me at 1030.. when the lesson suppose to start at 9.. oops.. comm skills.. started singing again.. i juz kept singing until susan<-- our comms skills lecturer covered her ears.. haha.. her actions so funny.. make me laugh.. hack care her.. so i juz kept singing and singing.. until LTQ 2.. haven stop.. haha.. sing until i am tired.. a day passed very quickly.. i think give me one more week i will be crazy for juz one more week.. be back to normal as soon as possible.. let me sing.. oh my love my darling~ that is unchained melody.. haha.. yes!.. nice song.. tell me that you love me tell me that you care tell me that you love me and i'll be there.. i'll be there for you! be there to sing for you.. sing until u call me shut the hell up.. haha.. oh my love my darling~ call my hp now.. if u wan to hear me sing.. who is the girl i see??? ...try again or walk away...

can u believe it?!!? meifen learnt ballet.. haha.. wonder why yesterday got so many post? cos i pon school yesterday.. and today i went to find out that ayob is on mc.. so morning no lesson.. we had 4 hours to do some sketching.. something like a free period.. we went to eat mac breakfast and back to m626 do the online-ing of drawing.. and start crazy when junlong and gang say my work is cartoon.. scold until happy already den start to do one crazy thing.. sing.. i juz kept singing and juz enjoyed seeing qiyin laughing to herself.. stage performance.. haha.. meifen taught me some basics of ballet.. and i made a fool outof myself as usual.. but dun care.. i juz like to move around instead of sitting at the cold chair.. tired and went to sng again.. 4 hours of singing and dancing.. finally it is 1 pm.. lecture? no.. sleeping time for me.. 2 hours of lecture.. 2 hours of sleep.. went home.. i wont be around until sunday.. tomorrow i will be working.. saturday also.. sunday i need to chiong for my draft.. shall do some slides today.. see you~ ...try again or walk away...

Your Evanescence song is: My Immortal
Memories of a time with a lost person consumes
you. You remember him/her so clearly and you
are tired of being a victim to your thoughts.
You are depressed because of all this, but you
just can't seem to let it go. Apperantly this
person meant the world to you and made you very
happy. You hope that one day he/she will return
to you, and you will live happily ever after.
But your mind tells you it's not going to
happen. You need to let go in order to find
peace.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real

What Evanescence song are you?[many outcomes + wonderful pictures]
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i got confused at first.. but i dun like the pic.. so i did the quiz again

Your word is: Sad. You wanted to give yourself to
someone. But they didn't accept you. Being
rejected, whether it be from family, friends,
love-interests or peers, is a very hurtful
thing to go through. It is also likely that you
have been betrayed several times before, which
is why you keep away from everyone now. You
learned the hard way to never trust people and
your defence-mechanism is now to isolate
yourself. Yet you yearn for people who will
understand and like you, to have the thing you
never had: love.

What Dark Word Represents You? [anime pics]
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i love myself more than anyone else.. i love my family.. i love my friends.. they are the most wonderful thing that happened to me.. my childhood best buddies, linlin and wansia.. used to cycle around estate of sims drive.. now different school and in a different surrounding.. i and wansia moved.. once in few years den we will see each other.. my favourite primary school friends leechen and jianren.. we dun play around a lot like me with linlin and wansia.. but i talked to them a lot.. i like to tell them wad is happening around me.. 1F 2F.. i love them all.. and my favourite girl meihui.. currently my best memories in class remains at the year 2002.. with all those nonsense happenings.. every moment is a happy thing.. all our chalets, bdae celebration and outings.. agree if u are part of us? missing badly.. 3H.. my classmates was nice.. i met a group of nice pple.. and i got attached to mjr band because of SYF.. group of nice pple <-- 1986 those guys.. and wanting.. always going to movies together.. including meihui and myself.. always going down to 3F classroom after school and the dog hole we had kept the friendship of 2F ^ 02 strong.. 2004.. a terrible year for us.. i guess.. drifted us apart.. going into soccer.. with yucks (the name they called themselves).. fun pple.. always made me laugh.. xiaoyun and gang played bottle soccer in class during recess.. and taking 100 home with her makes my trip home very exciting.. yup.. exciting.. sitting next to zhao kuang and mao jie during the year.. not happy just scold zk.. even he is angry or unhappy he can't do anything.. joking, gossiping and suaning with maojie were a happy thing.. 4H will be a quiet class but with every one in the small classroom made everyday an enjoyable day to spend in a year when o levels are very important.. long break before i knew where my next chapter would be.. i got a job at pastamania.. there i met a lot of nice pple.. they made me wan to stay in this job as long as i can.. NYP for now.. my classmates all are nice and clever pple.....try again or walk away...

pple who are trying to find job now.. waiting for results.. find with ur friends.. work together.. will be happier this way.. when u go into different school still can have same topic to talk about.. wan to chat also can find some excuses to call each other.. tuas? alone.. with photographer.. me wan to go? i dun mind.. but.. who am i suppose to call and talk to when i go home? listen to mp3 or fm? looks so pathetic.. special healing powers.. healing now.. 0.01 percent.. if my blog dun sound sad ar.. i will be really sad lo.. i have to fake 24 hours even in my dreams.. no more healing powers cos it just keeps bleeding inside.. forever-n-beyond is a plaster or medicine for me.. thanks for trying to cheer me up.. thanks.. ...try again or walk away...

can somebody help me!!!!???? i din go to school again today!! shit.. how how.. doesn't matter la.. as long as i complete my work at home.. i shall blame it on tian yang.. she din give me morning call today.. opps.. sorry.. not yet that evil.. but almost.. i will be laughing at home.. juz that you cant see it.. hahahahahahahahahaha.. ...try again or walk away...

not my day.. was late for school.. partly because i woke up late.. and partly because i let 3 bus pass me by.. full.. why did so many pple want to take the bus i want to take? forget about that.. i can complete the cadd thingy myself.. still got a bit of intelligence.. i dun look down on myself see.. yup.. so no ergonomics lesson today.. changed to friday.. had brownie and fries for lunch.. went to library with cherie.. the rest of the girls got their own activities i think.. i din ask.. talk about her absence from school.. er.. interesting but kind of sad too la.. her grandma whom she loves very much juz passed away.. and the story continues.. hm.. marketing lesson was a fast one.. she dun have lame jokes today.. ok la.. have.. din made me laugh.. i din laugh a lot recently.. haha.. trying to.. haha.. haha.. yup.. still trying.. had to work at 6.. have almost 2 hours to slack? meifen accompany me to walk around bishan.. so we went to shop for tian yang bdae gift.. and parted when i had to go to work.. i cut my hand when trying to save a cup.. obviously i failed because i cut my hand.. goh told me not to pick up the cup but he din know that i already cut my hand.. haha.. funny.. bleeding.. pain.. and he said something about press press press.. i din hear properly and asked jean.. she said "press press press dunno wad".. den we started laughing.. continued to work.. i think i got fast healing power.. it stopped.. but the cut there dun look nice.. still hurts when i get contact with water.. argh.. done.. got to continue with the colouring.. yawn.. ...try again or walk away...

I took for granted, all the times that I thought would last somehow.. I hear the laughter, I taste the tears.. But I can't get near you now.. I'm everything I am.. Because you loved me.. Through the lies you were the truth.. My world is a better place because of you.. If I could just find a way to make it so that you were right here, right now.. I've been sitting here can't get you off my mind.. Now I don't wanna make excuse, baby.. won't change the fact that you're gone.. So I'll just hang around and find some things to do.. To take my mind off missing you.. And I know in my heart, you can't say that you don't love me too.. Please say you do.. Now that we are apart, am I still in your heart? Near, far, wherever you are.. I believe that the heart does go on.. There is some love that will not go away.. Look at me.. You may think you see who I really am.. But you'll never know me.. Everyday it's as if I play a part.. Now I see.. If I wear a mask, I can fool the world.. But I cannot fool my heart.. I am now in a world where I have to hide my heart.. And what I believe in.. But somehow I will show the world what's inside my heart.. And be loved for who I am.. Take back that sad word good-bye.. Bring back the joy to my life.. Don't leave me here with these tears.. Come and kiss this pain away.. Un-break my heart.. Say you'll love me again.. If you could show me that someone that I used to be.. Mirror mirror hanging on the wall.. You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all.. It’s not always rainbows and butterflies.. It’s compromise that moves us along.. I know that goodbye means nothing at all.. Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls.. I couldn't tell you why she felt that way, She felt it everyday.. And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again.. Her feelings she hides.. Her dreams she can't find.. She's losing her mind.. She's fallen behind.. She can't find her place.. She's losing her faith.. She's fallen from grace.. She's all over the place.. With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.. Broken inside.. She's lost inside, lost inside.. What’s wrong with my tongue.. These words keep slipping away I stutter, I stumble off.. Like I’ve got nothing to say.. Yes I’m wishing my life away with these things I’ll never say.. You won’t cry for my absence, I know -You forgot me long ago.. Am I that unimportant...? Am I so insignificant...? Isn’t something missing? Isn’t someone missing me? You think you're going nowhere when you're walking down the street.. Acting like you just don't care when life could be so sweet.. Young girl, it's all right.. Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly.. Frightened to believe you're the best thing about me.. I know I let you down again and again.. I know I never really treated you right.. I've paid the price.. I'm still paying for it every day.. Nothin' else matters as long as we believe.. I'm lookin' at you and I see my life.. Passing before my eyes and when the journey's over.. And all my dreams come true.. I dream of you.. What can I do, to make you mine.. Falling so hard so fast this time.. What did I say, what did you do? How did I fall in love with you? I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends.. I didn't care to be with you.. now you're stuck in my mind.. end.. ...try again or walk away...

miss you too~.. ur blog is so sweet.. haha.. me also wan christmas wish.. everyone around me to be happy and healthy!! busy?? i should be too.. but.. slack.. hack care.. should i should i not? ya.. ...try again or walk away...

thursday spent the whole day at home.. din go to school and work.. not feeling very well.. a good night sleep.. i am back healthy! meifen told me today she had the worst birthday this year.. haha.. i wasn't around ma.. no la.. joking.. her friends forgot to wish her happy birthday.. 17 of November.. i muz remember!! i din had a good day too.. i miss out the millieum walk thingy.. and din go for the m&m class.. spending my day staring at the screen.. forget about thursday.. today.. oops not anymore.. friday.. the cube exercise.. ok.. din put in much effort.. last minute in the morning do.. haha.. still not back.. din score too badly.. average? ok la.. to me alright le.. den comm skills.. very funny la.. juz chatting and chatting.. suddenly say till the topic flat chested.. as usual.. being tease and all that.. went home.. online for a while.. jun wei suddenly tell me dun take it to heart abotu wad they say.. lolz.. ya i know i wont.. i am so used to it.. they dunno how i spent my secondary school life.. haha.. dotz dotz when he say flat also got flat de beauty.. pengz.. lost of words.. quite funny to me.. juz now i saw a sms again.. tell me they joking only.. diao.. i dun think i even frown lo.. juz keep laughing with them.. so cute.. my class pple are nice la.. they would help every little thing they could to every one.. juz that their jokes a not stop de.. like everyday got something new to say.. feel so lucky to be in my class.. haha..

it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time..

...try again or walk away...

linjie is back! lolz.. tomorrow work.. and i will keep work.. who cant make it for work muz call me replace.. i wan work work work.. $$$$.. if i go back hp this week.. for the rest of the year i can onli spent average $7 a day.. i juz bought a design book today.. $47? around there.. hope can give give me some guild and let me do better this semester.. 2.333 is an ugly number.. i dun wan it anymore.. ya.. i still haven choose the famous designer yet.. no arne jacobsen please!.. who is going to help me choose? ok.. nvm.. i going do it by myself.. and the stupid thingy give me the topic "doing laundry using washing machine" ok la.. compare to the rest.. i think mine is alright.. i am left with one month with the presentation.. and 10 days to complete the draft.. shit shit.. heart beating faster.. drink lots of water.. i am still late for eveyday lessons.. forced tian yang give me morning call everyday.. haha.. forced huihui to give me 2nd morning call.. i muz wake up early and reach school on time!! tell you tomorrow that whether i am late not.. muz larn fast fast do fast fast.. i going to be kind and helpful.. muz help huiling on the cadd thingy.. haha.. today later for half an hour.. cant every finish myself.. so couldn't help.. i am so bad.. haha.. ok.. i go to leave now.. see you tomorrow.. to never let it get that far.....try again or walk away...

i feel like an idiot.. i used to be irritated by all ur questions.. now i am craving for juz one.. one question.. ask me why am i feeling so bad? u know it has nothing to do with my phone.. haiz.. out of my mind again.. think.. sorry.. nvr knew i was so mean.. haha.. now i know.. quite interesting.. tried on others den on urself.. funny.. i am so irritating.. not your fault la.. mine mine mine!! thanks for ur 5 mins.. no need.. i am fine.. u can leave.. i can give myself longer time.. longer den wad u can give.. who? no one else.. me myself.. tell me how.. how i can return everything when i have nothing left? stupid.. i miss you when you are gone.. you will miss me when i am gone.. cant go back go forward.. if i saw the emc thingy on the sidewalk.. i am walking on the right path.. clock strikes twelve.. i am still here.. ...try again or walk away...

wo na guo.. talk to me.. no.. dun wan.. dun ask me anything.. juz say something.. haiz.. angry.. no.. yup.. angry.. hate you! ...try again or walk away...

i lost my hp yesterday.. i am not hinting anything.. juz that.. haiz.. sad.. handphones dun like to stick with me for long.. less than a year it's gone.. gone with the wind.. iavsn.. have to protect my 3100 now.. photos! =( dun cry.. juz a phone.. lost already and buy again.. better than losing something money cant buy.. so lets go get one when my pay arrives end of this month.. smile!! =D old one dun go new one dun come.. ahaha.. which model?...try again or walk away...

realised that i owe you an apology and you have it right here.. sorry.. walked away..

today our lesson ended earlier.. so we decided to go to park mall to get inspiration from those lights shop.. after that we went to a walking marathon.. the worst part it that it is juz walking from one place to another without shops for me to enjoy browsing.. damn.. and we walked to sunshine plaza if u dunno where is that.. that is somewhere near nanyang academy of fine arts.. there for wad? juz to accompany weijie but his modelling tools.. walked to sim lim square.. but stop there to consider that we haven thought of the design yet so we do not know wad we need.. and it is at sim lim tower not square.. wad the hell.. so wanted to go back home le.. legs are so tired.. he saw the pasa-malam near bugis.. stone.. nvm.. my turn.. since we r at bugis.. i wanted them to accompany me to shaw tower.. to find the lighting palace.. NO lighting palace.. bluff me.. yawn.. i tot weijie knew where it is.. he brought us to the toy shop.. -.-" ARHG!! since we r at shaw tower.. might as well go suntec to see the exhibition.. $20!!.. left 1 hour.. dun wan.. other days den.. he need to go work and we parted.. engqi followed him.. and cherie accompany me to citylink.. went to hmv and find the CD.. she found it for me.. bought her disc i bought mine.. and we chat on the mrt all the way till amk cos i drop at amk she drops at woodlands.. when i got down.. took bus home.. and that song play 2 times juz nice when i board the bus and alight from the bus.. and it is now playing on my head.. singing~ singing~ singing~ singing~ singing~ ..............

...try again or walk away...

2 days 3 days 5 days one week 2 weeks one month 3 months half a year till one year once.. bi shang yan jing zhi qian.. trying my best.. i starting to get busy le.. "lighting device" omg.. wad should i do? think.. help me!!! oh no no.. do my best.. i wan a better GPA this sem.. yup! and i will.. i go to go out le.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YING!!!

...try again or walk away...

today? i change time-table again!! lolz.. haha.. fridays start one hour earlier.. coming thursday pray no school.. if have den until 12.. need sleep.. my sleeping time back to normal.. no more 2 am 3 am.. not bad right? marketing lesson was interesting.. cos the lecturer very very lame.. is VERY.. u know i like to imagine when someone say something and really create the picture in my brain.. example like a pig wearing a pink polo-shirt trying to fly and so.. i laugh like hell when she say the tarzan thingy.. i imagine her face with the tarzen body.. paiseh when the guy in front of turn and stare at me when i laugh.. omg.. i forget his name.. shit.. haha.. i think is yong zhi.. opps.. ok.. den need to calm down.. xing xiang u know? and like juz smile at the jokes when i really wanted to laugh.. again!! she say the diapers thingy.. i imagine her with the diapers.. omg.. shake head.. rolling on floor liao.. today ends around 430.. next tuesday no her lesson.. is elearning.. dunno wad is that la.. i think is learning at home.. got to do very very well this semester.. if not will ..... ok.. good nitez..

...try again or walk away...

tired to read that i changed my time-table already? i changed again.. monday starts at 1 ends at 4.. and today.. i din had any lesson.. ayob went back army.. so.. no lesson today.. haha.. i sweim 2 hours in the late morning.. and i am back to the dirty colour.. haha.. should be healthy colour ba.. i think is nice.. not snow white anymore.. now is hm.. haha.. ok la.. stop.. tomorrow lesson tell 5.. yawn.. will be back.. ...try again or walk away...

BAD NEWS!!!! time-table change monday starts one hour later and ends one hour later.. tuesday got marketing.. so not ending at 3 anymore.. ends at 5.. the rest is the same.. ok la.. not so bad.. i cant work on monday le.. ...try again or walk away...

holidays will soon be over.. very very soon.. i will keep myself very very busy.. hm.. when there's extra time.. i will sleep.. i wont miss you anymore.. smile =D But though you're still with me I've been alone all along..went meihui house stay.. i falling in love with mahjong once again.. so long.. i lost touch with it le.. haha.. maybe my talent in that area never fade away.. so i win! yup yup.. yes i win.. i am very happy.. ok.. i will be back for my events.. who reads my blog? dun tell me 2 onli.. cos i bet.. 5 at least.. ok including me and linjie.. haha.. so 3 pple.. crazy la u.. i go liao.. byebye~...try again or walk away...