blog closed until graduation day.. one post and closed until nov 22nd.. sorry for the inconvenience caused.. lolz.. take care~

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tomorrow then blog.. today very tired.. see ya~...try again or walk away...

today was a laughing day.. got back physics for the first period.. i pass.. i got 52%.. was smiling and laughing because i was really very happy.. i passed.. second period was chemistry.. i got back my paper.. was so sad.. i got 45%.. i failed my science again.. history relief by mdm wee.. so take back paper 1 for english.. 19 and 17.. haha.. her comment for me was i improved.. smile.. i din fail.. haha.. one more free period.. the "guai" group laugh at me.. but they say i am cute so nvr mind.. during reccess went to collect money from baoyi and eileen.. back to class see them play battleship.. laugh a lot when we were disturbing them.. to chinese class.. i did well.. din fail.. quite happy.. zr jokes was funny.. lolz.. back to class for english again.. to dnt room keep on argue back.. out of my mind already.. lunch was the big big joke.. stayed in class played bottle.. as we usually laugh a lot when we play bottle soccer.. the most funny part came when kkk and zhao guang fall down.. zk the pants torn.. lol.. maths take back a maths paper 2.. i failed.. 44% dominic also 44% lo.. but he no need go for remedial because he passed his paper 2.. sianz.. after that dunno got physics remedial not.. yun go find mr kok.. at first haf de.. but when mr kok come our class so little pple, no more.. went home with xiao yun.. both of us failed 4 subjects.. amaths, humans, science, dnt.. sianz.. i can pass science and dnt one lo.. is 47% and 49% respectively.. arghh~ dun wan to think bout it le.. it's all over.. I WAN TO CRY!!!! lolz.. me go and study liao.. bye~.. how come u got so much time read my blog? go and study.. bye~

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"The greatest weakness of humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they're still alive."

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??

-It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her, am I right??

-It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her off??

-It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's there??

-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her because it's what everyone wants??

-It isn't love, it's LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she kissed you, or held your hand?

-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her?

-It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her because the sight of her makes your heart skip a beat??

-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her?

-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her every day she is the only one you think of?

-It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?

-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and breaks when she's sad?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her pain, even when she's strong?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do her eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her faults because it's a part of who she is?

-Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her faithfully without regret??

-Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her your heart, your life, your death??

-Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for? This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?The answer is so simple 'cos it's...LOVE

yesterday study physics at home.. do TYS.. but dun have answer booklet dunno i do correct not.. nothing much happened yesterday.. stayed at home for 24 hours.. din even go out of my house to water plants.. going to ground myself le.. haha.. 30 + more days.. friday chat with christine at msn for a long long time.. she not bad ba.. still can talk with me so long not even feel bored.. hm.. den sms for long long time until i sleep.. wake up on saturday morning bout 9.. sms until afternoon.. sit on my chair with TYS on my table.. one hand holding pencil one hand holding handphone.. multi-tasking.. haha.. i wear socks to sleep yesterday.. and now i am still wearing my socks.. haha.. my cough no more le.. i am finally back to healthy state le.. haha.. today is sunday.. take a break.. and keep eating.. haha.. growing fat le.. the rain come go fast and go so fast.. hm.. sianz.. i dun wan to study.. i dun wan.. but i had to.. sad~ go study le.. bye ...try again or walk away...

hey ya.. lolz.. hm.. er.. haha.. today a bit wierd.. time pass too fast le.. cant remember wad happened.. my amaths paper 1 got 36.. i need 44 for paper 2 to pass.. dotz.. sad.. physics sux.. kena suan by dominic.. back to class do english.. after school go find cherriann study physics with mr gui.. she got LRC.. i go alone.. learn one topic.. maybe i can really get B for my science for o lvl.. den mr gui help me analysis how many points i will get for o lvl.. lolz.. it was 19.. damn.. haha.. i tot i can get 15 or less de lo.. sianz.. a bit sad.. but muz learn to know where i stand la.. haha.. meihui birthday today but den she sick until go hospital.. called her.. sound so sick sia.. din go accompany her.. she got her parents and zilin they all with her le.. i went home.. i need to study for humans too.. shit.. how to get b4? when all i ever get for dis damn subject is f9.. sux..

the maximum points i need to get for poly.

EL - C5 CL - B4 E-maths - B3 humans - B4 science - B4 total = 20

if i am very lucky

EL - B4 CL - B3 E-maths - A2 humans - B4 science - B3 total = 16

but i dun wan study humans.. i din get to business also nvr mind

EL - C5 CL - B4 E-maths - B3 A-maths - B4 ( or dnt B3 ) science - B4 total = 19 or 20

if miracle happen to me

EL - B4 CL - B3 E-maths - A2 A-maths - B3 ( or dnt A2) science - B3 total = 14 or 15

i can predict the future!

if my brain is damaged, lost all my memories.. and left with onli study in my head.. maybe i will go woodbridge hospital..

EL - A1 CL - A1 E-maths - A1 humans - A1 science - A1 a-maths - A1 dnt - A1

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first thing in the morning.. go canteen take money from kok hong.. lolz.. after the flag raising mr choo came.. he asked why my answers all so short.. i failed my dnt.. first to tell me i fail.. wad the hell.. den let 4g de guys laugh.. paiseh.. took photos for the graduation pupils.. quite cute.. lolz.. back to class.. miss poh say cant get back papers.. heng.. at last.. wont one shot know i fail 2 prelim paper.. english also din get back papers.. was told we din badly for our paper 1 part 2.. do a bit of summary.. recess go 4E take $$.. lolz.. donation~ i am so kind.. haha.. maths got back emaths.. amaths paper 1 all failed.. haben get back yet.. hope i fail borderline onli.. i really wan to pass my maths.. my emaths was distinction!! lolz.. but wasnt A1.. haha.. to chinese class.. to dnt room.. sianz.. let mr choo say again.. wad serve me right.. idiot lo.. i studied for my amaths ma.. idiot pig.. but i got 49! lolz one mark to pass.. one mark more than wei hwang.. very happy le.. den crap a bit la.. rush to bus stop find my mother.. went for lunch.. to see doctor.. another 4 different medicine.. 12 in total liao.. all zhenru FAULT! doctor said had to go for x-ray.. scare.. to x-ray centre took x-ray.. lolz.. very funny.. the nurse asked am i pregnant.. wa lao.. den she laugh.. act cute.. back home.. my mama said i spent a lot of her money.. =( eh.. strange.. it was her $$ ma.. haha.. sianz.. now reach home le.. ...try again or walk away...

2 days no blog le.. prelims over.. today no need go school.. haha.. er..

Monday

erm.. monday was physics paper.. fail~ lolz.. went to kallang mac with kaiwen, huibin and cherriann.. huibin went back.. me and kaiwen go cherriann house.. we watched the notebook.. go there mess with her things.. den see kaiwen abuse her.. took 55 home.. a very long journey.. haha..

Tuesday

my last day of prelims.. amaths paper 2 and dnt paper.. amaths P2 was much easier than paper 1.. so hope to pass with a better grade.. finish paper le.. mr lim came and collect.. he heard me coughing.. ask why i still coughing.. smile.. and he walked away.. he came back.. ask me wan medicine.. he said his old story when he used to be like me.. and when he drank that medicine he become healthy.. lolz.. so sweet.. a very caring teacher.. arghh.. melted away.. haha.. the dnt paper was hell.. all dunno how to do.. the trouble of not bringing textbook home.. 2 and a half hours.. sleep until the chinese teacher call me wake up tie paper.. she tot i f&n student.. spoiled my sleep.. cant go back to sleep le.. look around.. so many pple still doing the paper.. take papers somemore.. sianz.. went home straight.. sleep until afternoon.. sms till sleep.. until the night den wake up.. watch titanic again.. haha..

Today

it is very early now.. cant blog for today.. will be back.. *smile*

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the habit of smsing for long hours is coming back.. help! yesterday sleep until afternoon.. watch tv until 4.. went to suntec find teng siang and kai keat.. tot they wan to buy present de.. but think they more interested in playing.. got one sec 3 one i think with them.. dunno the name.. din ask.. sianz so i went off.. walked around suntec.. bought a watch for meihui.. a bit ex.. but nvm.. lolz.. sianz.. go back find them.. watched terminal.. not bad.. the actor really know how to act.. haha.. now very early.. like 7 something onli.. very wierd.. so early blog.. haha.. lucky msn still got pple talk to.. dunno wan play wad.. later den i go study.. it is raining now.. haha..
sometimes we get lost within home
sometimes we get cold in warmth
so many times we shout in space
no voice is heard in response
our soul has flown away with no mercy on our hearts to spare
sun dies............ sun wake
only thousands tears in
thousands hurting nights we waste
coldness is not just winter
it is also fear within hearts
fear in the shadow
waiting to pounce on its prey
preventing hope from shining
the only allowance is not to stay
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had amaths paper 1 today.. 34 marks dunno how to do.. although better den block test de paper 1 but still scare will fail.. muz work harder for my paper 2!!! went home with cloud.. we become very lame.. in bus trying to fit a to z with fruits.. until we came to the word liulian then N.. wad n for fruit.. nunian.. lolz.. really lame.. next play the vegetables de.. zzz.. we are mad.. reach home round 11.. sleep until now 1530.. come online play.. ...try again or walk away...

today de weather is so cold.. winter coming.. history prelim first.. dun wish to talk about it.. went to find mr choo after the paper.. colour the exploded view.. 5 mins to colour.. colour until very ugly.. back to hall find xiao yun.. she was studying.. din wan to disturb.. go back to class.. play until perspire like hell.. we play the game teng siang invent de.. run around the classroom throw bottles at each other.. lol.. back to hall.. maths paper 2 start le.. cold.. du zhi tong.. shiver.. den alright liao hor the question stuck.. left 2 mins to complete.. i still got one 2 marks question.. i rather use the 2 mins to type my paper nicely then to think the last question.. if i think den i know how to do no time to do will feel wasted.. lolz.. nvr mind.. i still can get distinction de.. lolz.. if no distinction still got B.. cos aim for the sky and land among the stars.. lolz.. ok not funny.. after the paper go in front find xiao yun go home.. she was like a stone sitting there.. lolz.. i brought umbrella.. so we went home together.. reach home.. emptied bag.. put amaths book inside.. off to tuition.. very tired.. cant concentrate at all.. onli do a few questions.. scare liao.. i dun wan fail my amaths.. now at home le.. if you accidently said goodbye, pls remember me.. if you forget me, it doesn't matter.. as long as you are happy.. ...try again or walk away...

Tuesday

yesterday din blog.. very tired.. yesterday paper was maths paper 1 and s.social studies.. the maths i today realise i got a lot of mistakes.. the velocity de question i go do plus all the way when it is minus.. and the stupid pime factor.. 3 marks!!! and i spot the mistake and it left 30 seconds for me the change.. fu**! social studies study also fail de la.. do the soure-based and the essay juz crap few lines.. after that went to dnt room do the folio.. was climbing up and down the stairs all the time.. first is put bag.. down to buy file.. up to fill its content.. down because mr choo having lesson.. up to get the artefact but choo dun wan give me.. down to do the folio.. on the way saw mark.. band going concert.. din go.. tired.. got the artefact.. go find mr choo again.. call me wait.. up to the toilet to put dominic de artefact.. back to dnt room take the gun.. down to take photo.. up to take the gun glue.. stick the rod.. had to ask turtle master help me.. dnt room are closing.. rush through last piece of evaluation.. up to put back the gun glue.. down to bring artefact and folio to hand in.. HE WENT HOME!!.. wad the hell.. then the fat teacher( i dunno how to spell his name.. but think u all know hu la) call me go up put inside the toilet.. down to return keys.. the folio can hand in today one lo.. i rush until like hell.. up and down dunno how many times.. i must get a distinction or i cry.. went home.. the maojie call me study hard if not will need go army.. idiot.. he going sell barbie dolls after his o level.. sleep very early last night.. muz replace the time i stay awake..

Wednesday

this morning took bus.. saw quack when i am inside the bus and she in her father car.. i am going to be late liao.. got down the bus waited for cab.. the driver very good at speed.. he ask i going late ar.. he step his engine.. wow.. 100 km/h.. juz in time for school.. morning prelim paper is sci(phy/chem) paper 1.. first question wrong le.. sianz.. break for 2 hours.. went up to class.. talk with cloud.. down to hall the guys laughing at me.. wonder why.. they say i become thin liao.. realise jasmine was sitting at my place chatting with his boyfriend on the fone.. asked her dun mind.. she walked away and i saw water on my chair.. complain about it.. dominic saw.. almost fainted.. they still laugh happily.. saw is fats.. lolz.. went back class a while.. back to hall.. start le.. the paper 3 sci(chem) more worse.. dunno how to do at all.. bullshit all the way.. went back with cloud.. talk about the papers.. created a lot of lame jokes.. reached the bus stop.. kaiwen and cherriann came.. talk talk talk.. say until cherriann no need come so early tomorrow.. we keep saying that early go home is better.. we going back earlier on friday ma.. laugh laugh laugh.. xiaoyun say something funny.. she say she is miss cheong sister.. cos she is minnie.. wonder why.. sisters how come same name.. she say " i am meany M.E.A.N.Y" lolz.. board the bus.. talk about kah xin in f&n lesson wear uniform in a wierd way.. talk about students going back early.. and when we were in lower secondary after schools do wad.. so fast sec 4 liao.. haha.. reach home.. sleep for an hour.. 1530 go tuition.. now return home le.. not going study liao.. too tired.. later at night den read the history textbook.. bye

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shit.. why am i here today? cannot help it.. becos muz on the computer do the folio.. so hand itchy.. come blog.. haha.. tomorrow got chinese and maths.. prelims finally here today.. today the paper was ahem*.. chinese not bad.. still can write a bit crap.. social studies as usual.. do until sleep.. miss poh came and knock on my table.. open eyes closed again.. haha.. rushed home with xiaoyun.. chat in bus.. she tell me about her story on saturday.. reached home.. went to see doctor.. zhenru!! is all ur fault!!! spread ur virus to me.. i need to get x-ray next week.. i scare leh.. waited for my mother to come and pay $.. go buy fruits now at home le.. i got tuition later.. dunno wan go or stay at home complete folio leh.. now feeling very sleepy.. Zzz.............try again or walk away...

hey! hm.. hahaha.. heez.. hi.. hello.. prelimz tomorrow!! lolz.. Os are coming~ yesterday wanted to go band de.. but din go.. stayed at home.. watch tv.. study.. watch tv.. eat.. watch tv.. lol.. study for a short short time onli.. spent almost whole day to watch tv.. sister de boyfriend say me ju-on.. wa lao.. so angry lo.. how he know.. remember the friendster testimonials liao.. paiseh.. haha.. sianz.. today end of holiday liao.. so fast.. i need more holidays~ if my presence affects u so much, i will do my best not to let you see me again.. if u happened to see me, i will turn on my invisible mood.. ghost can be friendly ghost like casper too.. but who wan to jian gui? lolz.....try again or walk away...

i watched wind struck last night.. finally.. i cried.. damn.. this morning went to school for amaths lesson.. after that went to library with stella.. want to study also cant study.. see books or worksheets sianz half.. see comic and ask iq questions.. kok hong came to fetch stella.. weihwang came to study.. go canteen.. like not studying.. is talking crap.. his father very "cute" still act him.. he go find yy.. they go play soccer.. i go home.. watch tv.. play computer.. later den study again.. how many more days to O? *tired* ...try again or walk away...

http://cartoon.0451.net/flash/ShowFlash.asp?Id=6772 nice~ nice~ dun close the window too fast.. watch finish..

Time is spent on our life.. We.. mortals.. suspect a lot of things, which never happens. Unless you have the ability of seeing the future... Many have it, but doesn't recoqnize it. As time flies by.. People die and upgrade, and their upgrades will make them selfish and invulnerable.... As no one can resist this, then the world is at end. I can foresee that our time is short and our lives are tested.. Freedom with no rules is a life of love, cherish and caring. A possibility of this is not a usual present. Because of the mortals today, have chosen the other way of life... The life of evil, which is invulnerable to change... Nothing can stand against it... not even the religious or the wars.. Time will make us do this... And the time of destruction will come again, as a cycle of life......try again or walk away...

i went out with my family yesterday.. from morning to night.. went to tm watch movie.. the bourne wad thing one.. haha.. watched too much movies le.. like no more movie to watch liao.. now wait for the police story and terminal.. i am crazy for movies~ walked around.. then my mother buy me a watch.. saw my cousin.. went home together.. one day gone.. lolz.. sleep at 9 woke up at 3.. watch vcd.. go watch titanic.. mad.. ...try again or walk away...

wow.. it is amazing to see how one can change entirely in a day.. went to school for amaths.. relative velocity.. is easier than the aeroplane de.. after that went to mac with kai wen and cherriann.. huibin go bugis first den join us.. reach home about 2 something.. later going tuition..

Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something You said?

Don't leave me hanging

In a city so dead

Held up so high

On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be
[Chorus:]

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I'm difficult

But so are they

But they don't know me

Do they even know you?

All the things you hide from me

All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be
[Chorus:]

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
It's nice to know you were there

Thanks for acting like you cared

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were done
[Chorus:]

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
[Chorus:]

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

...try again or walk away...